Back A Scatter of Light
Chapters (64)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. 2008
  4. Chapter 1
  5. 2013
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. 2023
  60. Chapter 55
  61. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  62. CREDITS
  63. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  64. What’s next onyour reading list?

So far I’d found dusty boxes of children’s clothes, old costumes, and books. I pulled out a dog-eared copy of The History of Sexuality by Michel Foucault and saw my dad’s handwriting in the margins. I pulled out a few more: Orientalism; Distinction; Being and Time; Gender Trouble. At the bottom of the box, there were several volumes of poetry. Emily Dickinson, Walt Whitman, Allen Ginsberg, Langston Hughes, Adrienne Rich. A slip of paper poked out of the Rich volume. It looked like a photo, and I tugged it out to see a photo-booth strip of two people laughing at the camera.

They were my parents. My mom looked barely older than me, and there was kind of a baby softness to my dad’s face. They both looked so happy to be pressed together in that photo booth, my dad’s arms encircling my mom as she leaned against him, her eyes bright.

My phone vibrated in my pocket. I slid the photo strip back into the Adrienne Rich book, feeling as if I had glimpsed another world. I took out my phone to find a text from Mel.

Checking if you wanna do dyke march Sat? Still planning but we’ll probably leave together from my place in San Rafael. Hope you can make it

I wasn’t sure what to say. I looked down at the box of my dad’s books again, wondering what else was hidden in them. That was when I saw the rectangular black case tucked behind the box. There was something familiar about it, and as soon as I pulled it out, I realized it was my old telescope.

When I was ten years old, Grandpa had given it to me for Christmas. It came unassembled, but he told me I could put it together myself to build the same kind of telescope Galileo had used. Grandpa had ended up helping me, but afterward I had taken it apart and put it back together several times. I’d brought it to Woodacre when we visited in the summer, and he and I would go up to the roof at night to look at the moon and some of the planets. I must have left it here.

A big crash sounded from behind me, and I straightened up. “Joan, are you okay?” I called.

I went back to the storage room and looked through the doorway. The room wasn’t very large, and boxes had been stacked precariously high along one of the walls. One of the boxes must have fallen, because it lay smashed open on the floor. Books and papers were spilling out, and Joan was using her foot to nudge them together.

“I’m fine,” Joan said. “This box broke. Can you help me?”