Chapters (64)
- Cover
- Dedication
- 2008
- Chapter 1
- 2013
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- 2023
- Chapter 55
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- CREDITS
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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Jess Wong turns on a wireless microphone and gives me an encouraging smile. I pull out the piece of paper on which I’ve printed my speech. The words swim before my eyes. I’m thinking about my research into the microbial life that might exist on Mars. I look around the room, at the people who have gathered to see my art. Even Skylar’s here; they raise a plastic glass of wine to me. And then the gallery door opens and Tasha hurries inside. She catches my eye immediately and smiles.
“Welcome, everyone!” Jess says. “Thanks so much for coming out tonight. Pearl Gallery is committed to supporting and uplifting exciting new local artists, and I’m so thrilled to introduce you to the talented person behind the incredible pieces you see tonight: Aria Tang West.”
Applause. I see Dad holding up his phone. Mom is watching over FaceTime from Geneva; it’s the middle of the night there. Jess holds the microphone out to me, and after a deep breath, I take it.
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I’ve probably had too much champagne. I feel the bubbles in me, and I wonder if defending my dissertation will feel this good. I haven’t had a chance to talk to Tasha all night and now she finds me, pulling me over to A Scatter of Light, and we stand still together, in front of it.
“What’s the title mean?” she asks me.
“It’s not literal,” I say.
She gives me a patient look. “Humor me.”
“Okay, so think about the sunset. Sometimes it’s red, right? But the sun is actually white—it’s all colors at once. If you were looking at the sun in space, it would be white. We see the sunset as red because particles in the air like dust or smog scatter away the blues and violets, so we only see red.”
“Okay,” she says, and I can tell she wants more.
“What I’m saying is—” I hesitate. I don’t like to explain this stuff to people. I just want them to see a painting and experience how it makes them feel, but Tasha is my best friend. So I say, “The sunset is beautiful to us but in many ways we’re seeing an illusion. The sun isn’t red. It isn’t even setting.”
“But it’s still beautiful,” she says.
“It is. But what are we not seeing?”
She raises her eyebrows. “Blue?”
I laugh. “Don’t think about it too hard.”
She points up at the painting. “What are those pieces of paper?”
“They’re from a postcard.”
“What postcard?”
“A postcard of this band I used to know.”
“What band?”
I don’t tell her. Instead I say, “Remember when you visited me in California the summer after high school?”
She looks suspicious. “Yeah.”
“That’s when I started working on this piece.”