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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

‘I was looking for the photograph so that I could destroy it,’ Max said evenly.

His father stared at him for a moment. The darkness in his eyes was like a black hole and Max thought he might be swallowed up in it for ever if he wasn’t careful. Finally, after an age, his father nodded again, then turned his back. ‘Come,’ he said sharply. ‘And bring the photograph.’

Still holding the photo, Max jumped up from his bed and followed his father out of the room.

At the door to the lounge, Mr Fischer hesitated. ‘Wait in there,’ he said, pointing into the room. ‘I’ll be back in a moment.’

Max waited as he heard his father enter his office, the room next to the lounge. In the silence, he held the photo so tightly his palm had begun to sweat. He forced himself not to look at it again.

A minute or two later, his father was back in the room. He had something in his hand. A huge bundle of paper, wrapped in string.

He held it out to Max. ‘Here, take these,’ he said.

Max took the bundle and turned it over in his hands. It was a pile of envelopes. There must have been twenty or thirty of them. But why…

‘Look at them,’ his father instructed, folding his arms as he watched Max’s face.

Max pulled out a couple of the envelopes – and immediately realized what they were. He knew that handwriting. He had sat next to the boy who formed those spindly letters every day at school in Vienna.

They were letters from Leo. Letters he had never received, never seen, never knew existed.

Max’s chest tightened as he fought the urge to rip the envelopes open and consume what was inside them.

He knew what was expected of him.

Feeling his father’s eyes pinning him to the spot, Max walked to the fire. He held the envelopes out. Hesitated. Took a breath.

‘Go on,’ his father said softly.

Max felt a tear sneaking into the corner of his eye. No. He wouldn’t let it out. He hardened his will. This was the challenge that would truly make him a man. This was his birthday gift from his father.

The memory of his old friends was the final thing he had to let go of. Once he had cut that tie, once he had proved that Hitler and the Nazi regime meant more to him than anything else, there would be nothing in his way. He could give himself in his heart, body, mind and spirit to the party and his country – and once he’d done that, he knew he could conquer anything.

He threw the letters into the fire. The flames curled around the envelopes, greedy and starving, turning Leo’s words to ash.

Max still had the photograph. The final link to the boy he could never be again.