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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

Once her back was turned, Max’s father nudged him and, with the tiniest hint of a smile, he rolled his eyes. ‘Women, eh?’ he said in a conspiratorial sort of manner that filled Max’s heart.

His mother came back to the table with Max’s birthday cake. It was a Black Forest gateau.

Max’s friends gasped. ‘That looks wonderful, Mrs Fischer,’ one of them, Heinrich, said. ‘How did you get all those ingredients in wartime?’

Mrs Fischer laughed and pointed to her husband. ‘Being married to a senior SS officer has its uses,’ she said.

The boys all laughed in reply. Even Mr Fischer cracked a wry smile.

It was the best evening Max could remember having. Ever.

Except for… maybe one other evening. One time when the Black Forest gateau would have been a Viennese Sachertorte. When the tight discipline would have been replaced by carefree running around in a carriage high in the air. When the polite laughter was instead wide smiles captured in a photograph that he had not looked at or even thought about for years.

Stop.

What was he doing? What was he thinking? How could he insult his parents by even allowing a tiny part of his mind to go there?

Max forced himself back into the present moment. And for the rest of the evening he made sure to show his mother how much he adored her cake: the best he had ever eaten. He ensured he did nothing to anger his father. Max was the most generous and delightful host he could possibly be to his friends.

It was definitely the best birthday, he was absolutely sure of it.

But still, at the end of the evening, when the other boys had left and Max had helped his mother wash and dry the plates and his father had lit a fire in the lounge where he sat with a book, something tugged at a corner of Max’s mind. The corner that could not quite let go of that other birthday party.

He took himself off to his bedroom and opened his wardrobe. Kneeling down, he reached to the back for the shoebox he hadn’t opened since they had moved to Munich. He scrabbled through shoes and bags and mothballs that had never seen the light of day. And then…

There! He pulled the shoebox out, his arms doing the work without stopping to consult his mind. If they had, they would surely have known better.

He sat on the side of his bed and took the lid off the box. As he opened it, a smell of something from inside it climbed into Max’s heart. What was it? The books? The photographs? The old teddy bear he had completely forgotten about? It was hard to say, but the smell took him straight back to Vienna.