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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

Max got used to his new school over the coming weeks. It couldn’t have been more different from his old school. In Vienna, school had been fun, at least it always had been when he’d been able to spend time with Elsa and Leo. He got an ache in his chest when he thought about them. He wanted to write to them, wanted to tell them all about his new life – but somehow he always came up with an excuse not to. For one thing, his father would be furious if he found out about it, and Max was keener than ever not to upset him. For another, he was so busy with his schoolwork he barely had time.

But there was another reason, too, and Max didn’t want to admit to this one – even to himself.

He was starting to feel part of school life in a way he had never done before. Every day, his number one aim was to do what his father had said on the first day.

Don’t stand out. Don’t speak out. Do exactly what your teachers tell you and copy the other boys if you are unsure.

And it was working. Max didn’t stand out. He wasn’t the one singled out for taunts and laughter. He was becoming one of the crowd, and he liked it.

He soon discovered he liked having strict rules, too. The regimented day made things straightforward.

You were given orders; you followed them. You didn’t have to think for yourself, you just had to do exactly what you were told and you would be fine. The only attention you got was praise and respect. And it was addictive. The more Max got these things, the more he craved them. And the less he thought about his old friends.

Within weeks, Max made sure he was always one of the first to stand to attention when a teacher walked into the room. He shouted his Heil Hitler! salute as loud as anyone else. He worked as hard as he had ever worked in his young life. And his reward was that he quickly became part of the fold.

That was all he wanted. It was all he had ever wanted. Only now, the fold wasn’t a gang of three friends where he felt safe from everything. Now, he was part of everything, a cog in something bigger and more powerful than himself.

And if there were times when teachers said things that made him itch under his skin, he wouldn’t show it. He knew better than that.

When they had lessons about how to be a good Nazi, or why the German race was superior to all others, Max didn’t think about the ones who might be left behind. He comforted himself in the knowledge that he was one of the lucky ones. His father was a Nazi soldier. His family was part of the superior race.