Chapters (37)
- Copyright Notice
- Dedication
- BEFORE
- AFTER
- ONE THOUGHTS ON SUN HATS
- TWO TIME FOR CAKE
- THREE TWELVE MONTHS
- FOUR PSYCHIC KARAOKE
- FIVE A SECOND SLEEPING BAG
- SIX SIX MONTHS
- SEVEN THE EARLY BIRD GETS THE PANCAKE
- EIGHT SIX MONTHS
- NINE FOLLOW THE MUSIC
- TEN THE STARS ARE BRIGHTER IN THE DESERT
- ELEVEN SIX MONTHS
- TWELVE EVERY STAR HAS A SONG
- THIRTEEN PSYCHIC KARAOKE
- FOURTEEN ONE MONTH
- FIFTEEN A WELL-TRAVELED HAT
- SIXTEEN JOEL VS. THE VOLCANO
- SEVENTEEN TWO WEEKS
- EIGHTEEN HOUSE OF MEMORIES
- NINETEEN IF TREES COULD TALK
- TWENTY THREE DAYS
- TWENTY-ONE SEARCH PARTY
- TWENTY-TWO NOT THE SAME ZADIE
- TWENTY-THREE WAVES OF SMOKE
- TWENTY-FOUR THE DAY OF
- TWENTY-FIVE THE SKY IS FULL OF BIRDS
- TWENTY-SIX NEST
- TWENTY-SEVEN
- EPILOGUE
- TWENTY-EIGHT A SONG ABOUT A BIRD
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- Also by Ruth Emmie Lang
- ABOUT THE AUTHOR
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As prompted, the crowd erupted in cheers and applause. The emcee returned the mic to its stand and walked off stage left. Zadie looked stage right at the glittering emerald curtain that her mom would ostensibly emerge from in her four-inch leather boots and Van Halen T-shirt that she had artfully torn and safety-pinned back together.
Ten seconds went by and the curtain still hadn’t stirred. The cheers were slowly replaced with people murmuring, Where is she? Zadie wondered the same thing. She slid halfway off her stool, planting one foot on the floor, debating whether to go back behind the curtain herself and look for her. She spotted the emcee. Someone was whispering in his ear. He nodded and climbed back onto the stage. “Looks like Nora has stepped out for a sec.” The crowd groaned in disappointment. “While we wait for her, let’s welcome our next act…”
Zadie stopped listening as a seed of worry sprouted inside her. Had her mom’s friends ever witnessed her disappearing act? Had they covered for her before? Based on the emcee’s reaction, she guessed not. It’s probably nothing, Zadie told herself. And again, It’s probably nothing. She repeated the phrase in her head throughout the entire next act, the words marching to the rhythm of “Black Velvet” by Alannah Myles.
When the song was over, another performer who was not her mother took the stage. Then another. Twenty minutes went by. Zadie nervously stirred the ice in her empty glass with a straw, looking for her mom in the throng of neon-irradiated faces. She opened her phone to the ten unanswered texts she’d sent Nora and considered sending another. Instead, she shoved the phone into her pocket, climbed off the stool, and weaved through the crowd to the edge of the stage, where the emcee was standing, smoking a cigarette.
“Hi,” Zadie started nervously. The emcee looked down at her without smiling. “Umm, I was wondering … Do you know where Nora went?”
“She bailed,” he said gruffly. “One of our guys saw her sneak out the back.”
“Oh.”
“Do you know her?”
Zadie nodded.
“Good. Tell her if she wants a spot next week, she has some ass-kissing to do.” Something across the room stole the emcee’s attention. “Excuse me,” he said and walked off.