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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Spring 2019
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Summer 2019
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Autumn 2019
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. Chapter 27
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Winter 2020
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Spring 2020
  64. Chapter 56
  65. Chapter 57
  66. Chapter 58
  67. Chapter 59
  68. Chapter 60
  69. Chapter 61
  70. Chapter 62
  71. Chapter 63
  72. Chapter 64
  73. Chapter 65
  74. Chapter 66
  75. Chapter 67
  76. Chapter 68
  77. Chapter 69
  78. Chapter 70
  79. Acknowledgments
  80. Reading Group Guide
  81. Copyright

My responses to Freya’s texts had been brief and ambiguous as I grappled with my feelings. I’d been too upset to confront her before she left, but as the date of her return approached, I found emotional clarity. I wanted Freya and the baby in my life, but there could be no more secrets, no more deception. We had to face our issues head-on.

She texted me the day after they got home.

I’m baaaaaaack. Coffee? Lunch? Drink?

We needed privacy for this conversation; a place where we could be completely and utterly alone.

Could you come by the store?

Late January was a retail no-man’s land. Freya responded instantly.

Will Low be there?

My only employee had minimized the incident that led to her fallout with Freya. Her baby brother had been keeping her up at night, she’d told me, so she’d temporarily camped at the studio. A noise had woken her, and she’d rushed to the main house in concern only to find Freya and Max in the kitchen. A pottery bowl had broken, Freya had cried out in dismay. It sounded so benign, but Freya had been incensed by the invasion of privacy. Low had to have seen more than she was letting on.

I was certain that Low had caught Freya and Max in flagrante in the kitchen. My friend may have been sexually provocative, but she was not an exhibitionist. And she was pregnant. That would have made her feel more vulnerable. Freya was vain about her appearance. She must have been mortified and embarrassed, so she had cut Low off. What else could it have been?

I texted her back.

We’re closed Tuesdays. I want to talk to you. Alone.

As I hit send, a frisson of foreboding traveled through me. If Freya could excise Low from her life over a misunderstanding, she could do the same to me.

• • •

Freya arrived at the store dressed in white to set off her tan. Her bump had grown in the six weeks since I’d seen her. It rode on her tiny frame like a perky basketball. Her hair looked even blonder; her eyes even bluer. On her arm was a bulging canvas bag that she set on the counter before sweeping me into a long, genuine hug.

“God, I missed you.” She had a way of expressing intense, even intimate sentiments in a casual, offhand way. “And the baby missed you, too.”

She placed my hand on her taut belly. There was nothing for a moment, and then I felt it move. Freya’s child was rolling over, shifting position, letting me know he or she was there. A host of tangled emotions filled my chest. I already loved this baby.

“Wow,” I whispered.

“I brought you something.” From the bag, she extracted a bundle of newspapers. Inside was nestled an exquisite piece of hand-painted Mexican pottery.

“It’s beautiful.”