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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Spring 2019
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Summer 2019
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Autumn 2019
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. Chapter 27
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Winter 2020
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Spring 2020
  64. Chapter 56
  65. Chapter 57
  66. Chapter 58
  67. Chapter 59
  68. Chapter 60
  69. Chapter 61
  70. Chapter 62
  71. Chapter 63
  72. Chapter 64
  73. Chapter 65
  74. Chapter 66
  75. Chapter 67
  76. Chapter 68
  77. Chapter 69
  78. Chapter 70
  79. Acknowledgments
  80. Reading Group Guide
  81. Copyright

And she was caring for Maggie. While the tall, angular girl wasn’t warm or nurturing, she was competent. She had three younger siblings, so she knew the baby drill. She knew when to feed Maggie, when to change her and put her down for a nap. Freya was clueless. And selfish. The child would be in jeopardy if not for Low’s capable presence.

The bell above the door jingled then, and I closed my laptop anticipating a customer. But it wasn’t a patron. It was a seething ball of fury with pale-blond hair and a pristine white outfit. It was Freya, and something had enraged her.

“You fucking cunt.”

I was rendered speechless by the venom and vulgarity. Had Low told her that I’d submitted Maggie’s DNA sample? But Low couldn’t have outed me without revealing her own complicity. Could Freya have discovered it some other way?

“Your plan backfired,” she sneered at me. “They found nothing of concern.”

A moment of relief was chased away by confusion. “I don’t know what you’re talking about, Freya.”

“You called Child Protection Services on me.”

“No, I didn’t.”

“You’re delusional, Jamie. You know, that right? The fact that you’re barren has fucked with your head.”

Anger heated my belly. “I didn’t call them,” I snapped. “I guess someone else knows you’re a terrible mother.”

She came at me then, and I thought she was going to attack me, but she stopped just short of where I stood. “You and Brian will never get near my daughter,” she spat. “You will never be her mother.”

“Maggie is Brian’s child! He has a right to be in her life!”

Freya stepped back and I thought I sensed the slightest softening, a receptivity in her posture.

“We were friends once,” I tried, my voice gentler. “I—I loved you like a sister. We can work this out. For Maggie’s sake.”

She cocked her head slightly to the side. “Why would I want someone like you in my daughter’s life? You’re so basic. And boring. You’ve wallowed in self-pity for so long that you’ve lost any semblance of a personality. You’re pitiful.”

“At least I’m not a narcissist,” I shot back. “At least I’m not so shallow that I crave the constant validation of a bunch of online strangers.”

She smiled then, a mirthless grin, and narrowed her eyes at me. I hadn’t thought my rebuttal through, and I felt a sudden flicker of panic. And fear.

Freya’s tone, unlike her words, was calm and casual. “Even if you prove that Maggie is Brian’s, even if the courts take your side, I’ll run. I’ll take Maggie and I’ll disappear. I’ll take her and I’ll drive off a cliff. You will never, ever be a part of her life.”