Back The Perfect Life
Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. What readers are saying about
  5. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  6. Epigraph
  7. Prologue
  8. PART ONE
  9. 1. Now
  10. 2. Then
  11. 3. Now
  12. 4. Then
  13. 5. Now
  14. 6. Then
  15. 7. Now
  16. 8. Then
  17. 9. Now
  18. 10. Then
  19. 11. Now
  20. 12. Then
  21. 13. Now
  22. 14. Then
  23. 15. Now
  24. 16. Then
  25. 17. Now
  26. 18. Then
  27. 19. Now
  28. 20. Then
  29. 21. Now
  30. 22. Then
  31. 23. Now
  32. PART TWO
  33. 24.
  34. 25. Then
  35. 26. Now
  36. 27. Then
  37. 28. Now
  38. 29. Then
  39. 30. Now
  40. 31. Then
  41. 32. Now
  42. 33. Then
  43. 34. Now
  44. 35. Now
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  51. Epilogue
  52. Acknowledgements
  53. NUALA ELLWOOD
  54. NUALA ELLWOOD
  55. NUALA ELLWOOD
  56. NUALA ELLWOOD
  57. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘They suit you,’ he says, kissing me lightly on the neck. ‘I’m glad you like them. Now, let’s eat.’

Three hours and two bottles of champagne later, we’re still out on the terrace. Connor has located a couple of herringbone-patterned wool blankets and we sit huddled up together on the bench, looking up at the night sky.

‘Thank you for this evening,’ I whisper. ‘It’s been a wonderful birthday. One of the best I’ve had for a long time.’

‘You’re welcome,’ he says, nuzzling my hair with his mouth. ‘I love being with you, Vanessa. I just wish that … No, it doesn’t matter.’

‘No, go on,’ I say, pulling him closer. ‘What were you going to say?’

‘I just wish we could always be like this,’ he says, stroking my arm lightly. ‘I hate it when you have to go back to Fulham. Waking up without you, it’s horrible. I know it’s crazy, because we’ve only been together for a few months, but you’re the person I want to be with, Vanessa. I know that. What I’m saying is, how about we just go for it? How about you move in here properly?’

He sits up straight and looks at me. Everything about the evening feels right: the air, the food, the music, the champagne and the warm fug it has enveloped me in.

‘I want that too,’ I say, and his expression relaxes into a broad smile. ‘I want to be with you all the time. God, sometimes I’m even jealous of your colleagues because they get to see you more than I do. Waking up next to you each morning would be heaven.’

‘You mean it?’

‘Yes, I mean it,’ I say, reaching out for my glass to drain the last of the champagne. ‘I love you, Connor. And you’re mine. You’re all mine.’

5. Now

West Hampstead Police Station

‘It isn’t me.’

I hadn’t meant to speak but Bains was goading me, pushing me to admit that I was there, that I had something to do with Geoffrey’s death. In the end, the words just spilled from me without my consent.

‘Honestly,’ I say, trying to keep my voice steady, though my legs are trembling. ‘That person on the CCTV. It isn’t me. Like you said earlier, that woman’s name is Iris Lawson.’

‘No, Vanessa,’ says Bains, his eyes widening as though he can’t quite believe how crazy I am. ‘That is what you told our friend Mr Carter-Vaughan your name was.’

I shake my head.

‘It wasn’t me,’ I say, as beside me Frank Solomon clears his throat. ‘It’s just … just someone who looks like me.’

‘A doppelgänger?’ says Bains, leaning back in his chair. ‘That’s an interesting theory. Straight out of a fairy story. But then, you’re rather fond of stories, aren’t you, Vanessa?’