Chapters (57)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Dedication
- What readers are saying about
- AUTHOR’S NOTE
- Epigraph
- Prologue
- PART ONE
- 1. Now
- 2. Then
- 3. Now
- 4. Then
- 5. Now
- 6. Then
- 7. Now
- 8. Then
- 9. Now
- 10. Then
- 11. Now
- 12. Then
- 13. Now
- 14. Then
- 15. Now
- 16. Then
- 17. Now
- 18. Then
- 19. Now
- 20. Then
- 21. Now
- 22. Then
- 23. Now
- PART TWO
- 24.
- 25. Then
- 26. Now
- 27. Then
- 28. Now
- 29. Then
- 30. Now
- 31. Then
- 32. Now
- 33. Then
- 34. Now
- 35. Now
- 36. Now
- 37. Now
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- 39. Now
- 40. Now
- 41.
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- NUALA ELLWOOD
- NUALA ELLWOOD
- NUALA ELLWOOD
- NUALA ELLWOOD
- THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
But there it is, in bold lettering at the top of the page. Three words. The name of my life raft.
HOLLY MAZE HOUSE.
And I realize as I make a note of the viewing instructions that Mum has done it again, she has reached out just when I needed her most.
32. Now
I open my eyes to thick, velvet darkness. My head is throbbing and the ground beneath me is hard and cold.
Blinking, I press my hands against the floor, try to haul myself up, but my body feels like lead. The events of the morning come back to me in fractured images: white stucco houses rising up around me, a tabby cat lolling in the sun, Lottie’s text message and Connor running after me down the street.
He’s taken me somewhere, though in this half-light I can see only the outline of the room. Tall shapes rise up like distorted sea monsters, the air smells stale and fetid. I have to get to my feet, have to try to find my way out of here. I press down on the heels of my hand but my arms won’t carry my weight and I sink back down on to the hard floor. My heart palpitates with the exertion. I try to breathe slowly, try to calm the panic that is twisting up my insides.
I’m on my second deep inhalation when I hear something, footsteps coming towards me. I crouch into a ball, a defensive posture that I realize is pointless. I hear the sound of curtains being pulled back then a sharp strand of light cuts across the floor.
I feel a presence bearing down on me, the sound of shallow breathing. I pull my hands over my head and pray to my mum to keep me safe.
‘Come on,’ he says, his voice muffled. ‘You don’t have to be scared of me.’
I feel a hand on the scruff of my neck then he slowly pulls me up. I instinctively look down at the ground, but he takes my chin and lifts my face to his.
I scream.
‘Shh,’ he says, putting his hand over my mouth. ‘I told you. There’s no need to be scared.’
He is dressed all in black – a long-sleeved T-shirt, jeans and a balaclava with holes for his eyes and mouth.
‘Why are you doing this?’ I ask when he takes his hand away from my mouth. ‘What do you want from me?’
‘We’re going to have a little adventure, just the two of us,’ he says, his voice muffled. ‘A little explore. You see, I know your secrets. The ones you tried to hide from everyone. The fact that you like looking at houses, other people’s houses that you can’t afford. Nosy little so-and-so, aren’t you?’