Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Title Page
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- — Part One —
- — Chapter 1 —
- — Chapter 2 —
- — Chapter 3 —
- — Chapter 4 —
- — Chapter 5 —
- — Chapter 6 —
- — Chapter 7 —
- — Chapter 8 —
- — Chapter 9 —
- — Chapter 10 —
- — Chapter 11 —
- — Chapter 12 —
- — Chapter 13 —
- — Chapter 14 —
- — Chapter 15 —
- — Chapter 16 —
- — Chapter 17 —
- — Chapter 18 —
- — Chapter 19 —
- — Chapter 20 —
- — Chapter 21 —
- — Chapter 22 —
- — Chapter 23 —
- — Chapter 24 —
- — Chapter 25 —
- — Chapter 26 —
- — Chapter 27 —
- — Chapter 28 —
- — Chapter 29 —
- — Chapter 30 —
- — Chapter 31 —
- — Part Two —
- — Chapter 32 —
- — Chapter 33 —
- — Chapter 34 —
- — Chapter 35 —
- — Chapter 36 —
- — Chapter 37 —
- — Chapter 38 —
- — Chapter 39 —
- — Chapter 40 —
- — Chapter 41 —
- — Chapter 42 —
- — Chapter 43 —
- — Chapter 44 —
- — Chapter 45 —
- — Chapter 46 —
- — Chapter 47 —
- — Chapter 48 —
- — Chapter 49 —
- — Chapter 50 —
- — Chapter 51 —
- — Chapter 52 —
- — Chapter 53 —
- — Chapter 54 —
- — Chapter 55 —
- — Chapter 56 —
- — Chapter 57 —
- — Chapter 58 —
- — Chapter 59 —
- — Part Three —
- — Chapter 60 —
- — Chapter 61 —
- — Chapter 62 —
- — Chapter 63 —
- — Chapter 64 —
- — Chapter 65 —
- — Chapter 66 —
- — Chapter 67 —
- — Chapter 68 —
- — Chapter 69 —
- — Chapter 70 —
- — Chapter 71 —
- — Chapter 72 —
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
The teapot whistles. Irene gets up, turns off the heat, takes the pot from the burner. “I had to drop her off at Mrs. Varnick’s, so I decided I’d come see you.”
“Lucky me,” I say.
I know she heard me, but she pretends she didn’t. She opens the cabinet where we keep plates, closes it, opens the next one and takes out two mugs. They’re also Margo hand-me-downs, chipped and cracked from too much use at the diner. Irene rinses them with the jug water, touches the chips with her finger like it might repair them. She starts fishing around in drawers. I’m pretty sure this isn’t about the ring. I don’t think she could keep a poker face this long.
“Oh! You know, I think we’re out of tea,” I say like the thought just occurred to me. I try not to smile, but I feel my mouth going there anyway.
I watch her shoulders creep to her neck. She slams the drawer closed. “Damnit, April! I’m trying. I am trying here.” She sits across from me in the booth and drops her head in her hands. “I don’t know what I did to you,” she whispers, poking at the splinters of my guitar like she’s playing pick-up sticks. Move one sliver without the others collapsing. “I love your father. How does that hurt you? I don’t get it.”
“Because you’re an idiot,” I say.
“Not fair, April.” Her voice breaks. I can see tears well up. “Not fair!”
“Is it fair that you took him? That you take all of it? I get crap and you get a new car? What’s fair about that, Irene?” I get up and walk out, slamming the door behind me. I pace in the driveway, walk around the car and kick the tires, feeling the sting in my toes.
Irene comes out. She’s standing on the steps, just like my dad when he smashed my guitar, but she’s crying, mascara running down her cheeks like dirty slug trails. “I just wanted us to get along. I thought—I just thought since I’m pregnant with your little brother or sister you might decide you give a shit. You might try to be my family too.”
The jumper cables hit my heart again. “Yeah, that’s what my dad needs. Another kid.” I stand between her and the car so she can’t get away yet. “Fucking brilliant! Especially since he does such a good job taking care of the one he already has. Smart, Irene. Good one.”