Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Title Page
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- — Part One —
- — Chapter 1 —
- — Chapter 2 —
- — Chapter 3 —
- — Chapter 4 —
- — Chapter 5 —
- — Chapter 6 —
- — Chapter 7 —
- — Chapter 8 —
- — Chapter 9 —
- — Chapter 10 —
- — Chapter 11 —
- — Chapter 12 —
- — Chapter 13 —
- — Chapter 14 —
- — Chapter 15 —
- — Chapter 16 —
- — Chapter 17 —
- — Chapter 18 —
- — Chapter 19 —
- — Chapter 20 —
- — Chapter 21 —
- — Chapter 22 —
- — Chapter 23 —
- — Chapter 24 —
- — Chapter 25 —
- — Chapter 26 —
- — Chapter 27 —
- — Chapter 28 —
- — Chapter 29 —
- — Chapter 30 —
- — Chapter 31 —
- — Part Two —
- — Chapter 32 —
- — Chapter 33 —
- — Chapter 34 —
- — Chapter 35 —
- — Chapter 36 —
- — Chapter 37 —
- — Chapter 38 —
- — Chapter 39 —
- — Chapter 40 —
- — Chapter 41 —
- — Chapter 42 —
- — Chapter 43 —
- — Chapter 44 —
- — Chapter 45 —
- — Chapter 46 —
- — Chapter 47 —
- — Chapter 48 —
- — Chapter 49 —
- — Chapter 50 —
- — Chapter 51 —
- — Chapter 52 —
- — Chapter 53 —
- — Chapter 54 —
- — Chapter 55 —
- — Chapter 56 —
- — Chapter 57 —
- — Chapter 58 —
- — Chapter 59 —
- — Part Three —
- — Chapter 60 —
- — Chapter 61 —
- — Chapter 62 —
- — Chapter 63 —
- — Chapter 64 —
- — Chapter 65 —
- — Chapter 66 —
- — Chapter 67 —
- — Chapter 68 —
- — Chapter 69 —
- — Chapter 70 —
- — Chapter 71 —
- — Chapter 72 —
- Acknowledgments
- About the Author
“That woman,” Margo says, “thinks she’s pretty high and mighty these days. Her big star of a son bought her a Cadillac, which she believes gives her perpetual right of way.” She rolls her eyes. “Like Cathy Spencer needed an excuse to be a bigger bitch.”
It’s funny to think of Mrs. Spencer as a bitch. I always just thought of her as a grown-up.
“I saw him,” I tell Margo, “Matty. This spring. I think they did his teeth.”
“Like they aren’t real?”
“Exactly. They don’t look like they used to.”
“Amazing.” Margo shakes her head. “What will they think of next? They nip things that don’t need tucking. Give fake teeth to someone with perfectly decent ones. That boy had fine teeth to begin with. He never had any problems chewing.”
I yawn. I can’t help myself.
“Well,” Margo says. “What’s say we close up here and turn in for the night. You must be exhausted.”
I think of the motorhome, the way it used to smell like mildew and rust. I think about driving down the dirt road to get there. I worry I’ll end up puking on the side of the road again. “I don’t think I can do it, Margo. Go to the motorhome. I don’t think—”
“Don’t be silly. I have my couch all pulled out and made up for me to sleep on so you can have my bed.”
“You do?”
“Of course,” she says. “Your father can’t very well yell at me for overstepping my bounds now, can he?” She claps her hand over her mouth. Her face goes pale. “I’m sorry. I just—I always felt bad taking you back to that motorhome. I didn’t mean to…”
I’m ready to cry, to know that Margo might have actually wanted me. To know that she really would have taken me home with her if she could. But I think if I cry she will and if she cries I’ll cry harder and between us, we might have too many tears to ever stop. So instead, I say, “I can sleep on the couch. Really, it’s okay,” because I can’t let any of it sink in. I could drown, so easily, I could drown.
“April,” she says, grabbing my arm and shaking it, “use that delicate condition to your advantage. Take the bed.”
Margo’s apartment looks pretty much the same as it always has, except she has a cat now. “I’m one of those ladies,” she tells me when a dark blur darts across the living room as we kick our shoes off. “That’s Stuart.” She points to the chair he’s taken refuge under. Yellow eyes stare back at us.