She was of average beauty but of fine body. She said that she was mine for the evening and she asked me what I wanted to do with her. I had no idea. It was like putting a piano before someone who cannot play. I liked how she looked but had no idea how to make the keys sing. Luckily, she was kind and took her time with me. She kissed me first, long and hard. I’d kissed Eliza before, but this was something forbidden and so was even more enticing. It wasn’t the soft, gentle, uncertain kisses of girls but a woman who had kissed many others. She held my arms and then my neck and back and her tongue made its way into my mouth, a first for me, but ravishing. I resisted at first; it felt too intimate, an invasion of my space, but after a while I opened wider to let her in. She carried on, kissing and kissing, wide mouthed, tongue searching, teeth clashing occasionally, but she never pulled back. All my world narrowed. Drawing back for air and pressing in again with lips and tongues, hands grasping at arms, shoulders, waist, neck and up into her hair, pulling her to me, as if I had been let loose and never wanted her to be apart from me.

She held my lip gently between her teeth and I searched for hers, holding it then releasing, then sucking, then more deep, powerful kisses as our mouths moved together, unsure where mine ended and hers began. Then she moved away from my mouth’s reach and kissed my neck and shoulders, pushing down my dress and she was at my ear lobe, sucking gently and tickling with her tongue and then back to my neck, nipping and kissing, soft then hard. She pulled me to the bed, sat behind me and undid my dress and corset, all the while teasing my neck with her lips, as my heart raced. My dress fell to the floor and she pulled me back onto her lap and kissed me again on the mouth as she pulled out my curls. I felt vulnerable and would have preferred for it to have been the other way around, but I hadn’t known how to do what she was doing. I was learning, I was her pupil. This would be what I would desire to do to others.