Chapters (105)
- Praise
- Title Page
- Contents
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Saturday
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Ten months earlier
- Sunday
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Nine months earlier
- Monday
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Six months earlier
- Tuesday
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Four months earlier
- Wednesday
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- One month earlier
- Thursday
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- One Month Later
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by T.M. Logan
- A message from TM Logan
- Copyright
It was true, she supposed: that was how their paths had collided in the autumn after graduation. At first she’d thought her black mood was some kind of post-university slump, the inevitable dip caused by the end of three intense years living with her three brilliant new best friends. They’d all returned to their respective home towns – initially, at least – and Jennifer had felt a loss of something so fundamental, so important, that she didn’t know if she would ever find it again. It wasn’t that she missed her middle-school friends back in California; that was a long way behind her by then, and she’d already started to think of herself as more British than American. But it felt like an ending to the best three years of her life. Summer came and went without the black cloud lifting, and when a routine visit to the GP ended with her breaking down in tears and sobbing her heart out, she was referred for counselling.
It wasn’t love at first sight. That wasn’t how Alistair affected her. But slowly, over the weeks and months, she began to look forward to seeing him more and more. She would feel a little lift, a little brightness, when her Wednesday sessions came around with this calm, kind man who seemed to have all the answers, who could relax her, who was the first man who actually listened to her. The first man who understood her. Almost ten years older, already married and divorced, he had a wisdom about him, a tranquillity, that she found intoxicating. He was a scholar, a thinker, a lifelong student of the mind. He had answers for questions she’d not even realised she had.
And then, one February Wednesday, she had made a decision. She bundled herself up in her thickest coat, gloves, scarf and boots and settled herself on a park bench across the street from his practice, after her session was over. When he came out to buy his lunchtime sandwich from the little deli on the high street, she followed him and just ‘happened’ to bump into him as he sat at the window seat with his pastrami-on-rye.
That was how it started.
They had sailed pretty close to the wind in terms of his code of professional ethics because in the early days there were times when they had got a bit carried away. But he’d avoided trouble by having her assigned to another therapist, so that their burgeoning relationship could be above board, out in the open. Everything had happened quickly after that. Moving into his flat, then a little house together, a baby, then another, a bigger house, then a civil wedding with two of the cutest little pageboys you could ever wish for. Jake, her sweet, sensitive, complicated firstborn with a head of golden hair, and Ethan, who was just . . . Ethan. Her sensible second child.