Back The Empress
Chapters (68)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. 1853
  4. PART I
  5. ONE
  6. TWO
  7. THREE
  8. FOUR
  9. FIVE
  10. SIX
  11. SEVEN
  12. EIGHT
  13. NINE
  14. TEN
  15. ELEVEN
  16. TWELVE
  17. THIRTEEN
  18. FOURTEEN
  19. FIFTEEN
  20. SIXTEEN
  21. SEVENTEEN
  22. EIGHTEEN
  23. NINETEEN
  24. TWENTY
  25. TWENTY-ONE
  26. TWENTY-TWO
  27. TWENTY-THREE
  28. TWENTY-FOUR
  29. TWENTY-FIVE
  30. TWENTY-SIX
  31. TWENTY-SEVEN
  32. TWENTY-EIGHT
  33. TWENTY-NINE
  34. THIRTY
  35. THIRTY-ONE
  36. THIRTY-TWO
  37. THIRTY-THREE
  38. THIRTY-FOUR
  39. THIRTY-FIVE
  40. THIRTY-SIX
  41. 1854
  42. PART II
  43. THIRTY-SEVEN
  44. THIRTY-EIGHT
  45. THIRTY-NINE
  46. FORTY
  47. FORTY-ONE
  48. FORTY-TWO
  49. FORTY-THREE
  50. FORTY-FOUR
  51. FORTY-FIVE
  52. FORTY-SIX
  53. FORTY-SEVEN
  54. FORTY-EIGHT
  55. FORTY-NINE
  56. FIFTY
  57. FIFTY-ONE
  58. FIFTY-TWO
  59. FIFTY-THREE
  60. FIFTY-FOUR
  61. FIFTY-FIVE
  62. FIFTY-SIX
  63. FIFTY-SEVEN
  64. FIFTY-EIGHT
  65. FIFTY-NINE
  66. SIXTY
  67. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  68. ABOUT THE AUTHOR

“It broke me,” she whispered. “It broke me to think you would send me away instead of listening to me, talking with me.”

He held her and he cried—the tears, more than anything, convincing her that he finally saw how hurt she was, how much it mattered what the doctor and priest had done.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered into her hair. “With all the tension in that room over other things—war and language and Maxi and Mother—I thought letting you rest would be better for everyone. I was so afraid of making enemies with a public scene that I didn’t stop to think … didn’t realize how it would feel to you. I didn’t know what they’d done to you. I’m so sorry.”

Elisabeth breathed into his chest, pressed her face hard against the strong warmth of him. “I need you to promise you won’t do that to me again. That you won’t just send me away without asking why I’m upset. I can’t live like that—cut off from even you, fighting my battles alone.”

He pulled back, looked her in the eyes. “I promise.”

He took a deep breath. “I love you.”

It was the first time he’d said it aloud, and Elisabeth’s heart settled with the truth of it. “And I love you.”

She’d practiced the words so many times, but nothing compared to the look on his face when she said them aloud. She leaned her head into his chest again, felt his hand move to run fingers through her hair. He kissed the top of her head. Twice. Three times.

She almost laughed with the relief of it. She’d seen her parents argue, hurt each other, and it had always drenched the whole house in despair: her father off to get drunk and seduce someone, her mother looking for someone else to lash out at. Their disagreements and missteps had made them the worst versions of themselves. Somewhere, deep down, that’s what she’d feared this was. A breaking point. A battle. The moment their relationship would become an echo of the pain she’d seen in her parents’ marriage.

But this wasn’t that. Not even close. There was love between them, not disdain. She and Franz were tearing at the things keeping them apart, not building those things up. Franz wouldn’t run from her pain when he really saw it; he’d feel it with her, hold her through it.

“Before I met you, I felt like everyone here just wanted something from me,” he whispered. “Everything was duty. People wanted war or peace. They wanted power, a place in my court. They wanted an heir, pressured me to marry. Even marriage was duty. The one thing that should have been my own—love—I dreaded.”

Elisabeth held her breath, listened, felt his heartbeat against his rib cage.