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Chapters (63)
  1. THE AMERICANA PLAYBOOK
  2. Dear Reader
  3. The Troubled Teen Industry
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. New England Rebels
  7. Day 44
  8. Chapter 1
  9. Chapter 2
  10. Chapter 3
  11. Chapter 4
  12. Day 55
  13. Chapter 5
  14. TWO MONTHS LATER
  15. Chapter 6
  16. Chapter 7
  17. Chapter 8
  18. Day 68
  19. Chapter 9
  20. Chapter 10
  21. Chapter 11
  22. Chapter 12
  23. Day 78
  24. Chapter 13
  25. Chapter 14
  26. Chapter 15
  27. Chapter 16
  28. Chapter 17
  29. Day 84
  30. Chapter 18
  31. Chapter 19
  32. Chapter 20
  33. Day 91
  34. Chapter 21
  35. Chapter 22
  36. Day 100
  37. Chapter 23
  38. Chapter 24
  39. Chapter 25
  40. Chapter 26
  41. Day 113
  42. Chapter 27
  43. Chapter 28
  44. Chapter 29
  45. Chapter 30
  46. Day 128
  47. Chapter 31
  48. Chapter 32
  49. Chapter 33
  50. Day 147
  51. Chapter 34
  52. Chapter 35
  53. Chapter 36
  54. Chapter 37
  55. Chapter 38
  56. Chapter 39
  57. Chapter 40
  58. Epilogue
  59. ONE MONTH LATER
  60. FIVE YEARS LATER
  61. Acknowledgments
  62. Also by Cathryn Carter
  63. About the Author

Fitz drums his hands against the steering wheel. “I know you already know this, but if you’re thinking about waitressing”—he pauses when I whip my head to face him—“I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with that, alright? I don’t have the patience or endurance to work in hospitality. What I’m saying is it definitely won’t fly with your family.”

“My family?” I ask. “Or you?”

When the light changes, Fitz pulls into the intersection. “Well, it doesn’t exactly go well with our brand.”

Both of my eyebrows escape north. “We have a brand?”

“Kind of. If you consider how people on the internet are referring to us as Captain and Mrs. America, we sort of have something to go off of.”

“It’s kind of cringy,” I say.

“Maybe a little,” he agrees, but I watch a smile take hold of his face. “But we could be called worse.”

I snort. “Yeah. Like frauds.”

Fitz laughs. “I was thinking more of Barbie and Ken.”

“I’m no Barbie.” I warn him. “That would be Madeline. The perfect one.”

No one sends Barbie off to prison, I think to myself. But the truth is, I never needed anyone to see me as perfect. I just needed to be seen, to be heard, to be held. After Honey died, life turned upside down. It was like suddenly, I woke up, and someone was there telling me, This is your life now, Parker. These are your parents. Really, they felt like total strangers. And I was right. Family wouldn’t do what they did. No way in hell.

Fitz cuts through my thoughts. “Perfect is relative.”

I lean against the seat and turn my head to him. “Are you saying I’m perfect for you?”

He doesn’t answer.

“Figured as much. Sorry you’re soon-to-be wife is pretty imperfect⁠—”

“I’m perfect.”

I tsk. “Don’t rub it in.”

“No, I don’t mean me.” Fitz chuckles. “Imperfect spells out I’m perfect. So if you think about it that way, you’re perfect exactly how you are right in this moment.”

Fitz’s words sink into me, each one warming every bit of my body, thawing out what I’ve been told most of my life—the exact opposite.

“And,” Fitz continues, “Yeah. I don’t like the thought of you waitressing. But that’s because it implies I can’t take care of you.”

“Fitz, we already discussed this⁠—”

“I get it. You’re independent. You don’t need a man to take care of you, blah, blah, blah. Who would you rather do it? Me?” he asks. “Or your parents?”

He has me there.

I sink lower into my seat. “I just need to find more things up here. I get that you’re on vacation.”

Fitz shoots me a scowl as he slows.

“Okay, sorry. What did you call it? Active recovery.”

“You could come work out with me.”