Chapters (63)
- THE AMERICANA PLAYBOOK
- Dear Reader
- The Troubled Teen Industry
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- New England Rebels
- Day 44
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Day 55
- Chapter 5
- TWO MONTHS LATER
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Day 68
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Day 78
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Day 84
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Day 91
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Day 100
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Day 113
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Day 128
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Day 147
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Epilogue
- ONE MONTH LATER
- FIVE YEARS LATER
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Cathryn Carter
- About the Author
Fitz drums his hands against the steering wheel. “I know you already know this, but if you’re thinking about waitressing”—he pauses when I whip my head to face him—“I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with that, alright? I don’t have the patience or endurance to work in hospitality. What I’m saying is it definitely won’t fly with your family.”
“My family?” I ask. “Or you?”
When the light changes, Fitz pulls into the intersection. “Well, it doesn’t exactly go well with our brand.”
Both of my eyebrows escape north. “We have a brand?”
“Kind of. If you consider how people on the internet are referring to us as Captain and Mrs. America, we sort of have something to go off of.”
“It’s kind of cringy,” I say.
“Maybe a little,” he agrees, but I watch a smile take hold of his face. “But we could be called worse.”
I snort. “Yeah. Like frauds.”
Fitz laughs. “I was thinking more of Barbie and Ken.”
“I’m no Barbie.” I warn him. “That would be Madeline. The perfect one.”
No one sends Barbie off to prison, I think to myself. But the truth is, I never needed anyone to see me as perfect. I just needed to be seen, to be heard, to be held. After Honey died, life turned upside down. It was like suddenly, I woke up, and someone was there telling me, This is your life now, Parker. These are your parents. Really, they felt like total strangers. And I was right. Family wouldn’t do what they did. No way in hell.
Fitz cuts through my thoughts. “Perfect is relative.”
I lean against the seat and turn my head to him. “Are you saying I’m perfect for you?”
He doesn’t answer.
“Figured as much. Sorry you’re soon-to-be wife is pretty imperfect—”
“I’m perfect.”
I tsk. “Don’t rub it in.”
“No, I don’t mean me.” Fitz chuckles. “Imperfect spells out I’m perfect. So if you think about it that way, you’re perfect exactly how you are right in this moment.”
Fitz’s words sink into me, each one warming every bit of my body, thawing out what I’ve been told most of my life—the exact opposite.
“And,” Fitz continues, “Yeah. I don’t like the thought of you waitressing. But that’s because it implies I can’t take care of you.”
“Fitz, we already discussed this—”
“I get it. You’re independent. You don’t need a man to take care of you, blah, blah, blah. Who would you rather do it? Me?” he asks. “Or your parents?”
He has me there.
I sink lower into my seat. “I just need to find more things up here. I get that you’re on vacation.”
Fitz shoots me a scowl as he slows.
“Okay, sorry. What did you call it? Active recovery.”
“You could come work out with me.”