Chapters (63)
- THE AMERICANA PLAYBOOK
- Dear Reader
- The Troubled Teen Industry
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- New England Rebels
- Day 44
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Day 55
- Chapter 5
- TWO MONTHS LATER
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Day 68
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Day 78
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Day 84
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Day 91
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Day 100
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Day 113
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Day 128
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Day 147
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Epilogue
- ONE MONTH LATER
- FIVE YEARS LATER
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Cathryn Carter
- About the Author
I’d make a face if I wasn’t so distracted by the shape of his semi-flexed bicep.
Stop. Gawking.
“I cheated on you today,” I blurt out. I press my lips together because I’m about to burst out into uncomfortable, awkward laughter like a teenager. But when Fitz and I were teenagers, I never acted like this. Then again, Fitz never looked like this. Or maybe I just never chose to see him this way.
“Oh.” Fitz folds his arms across his chest. The change in stance makes him seem even bigger, bordering on intimidating in the best kind of way. He’s looming awfully close to the red line. “Did you?”
I nod. “Tall, dark, vegetarian,” I say before adding through my grin, “and hung like a horse.”
Fitz tips his head, his combed, wet hair falling to the side. The movement takes with it his confused grin, stretching it on an angle. It must be the high of today—I find it oddly adorable.
“My boyfriend’s name is Bernard.”
“Bernard?”
“He’s Dutch.”
Fitz’s eyes widen dramatically. “Hung like a horse and Dutch. That’s a lot for me to compete against. You couldn’t have gone just a small step up? Did you really need to climb the full ladder?”
I laugh, knowing he’s being a good sport. “He’s a horse, Fitz. A Dutch Warmblood. God, he’s gorgeous. You couldn’t possibly believe I’d cheat on you even fictionally. Who would that be with anyway?”
Fitz shrugs. “I don’t know. Could’ve been a teacher.”
“A teacher?”
“You know.” Fitz waves his hand. “Like a horse teacher.”
I correct him, “A trainer. But rest assured. Just a horse.”
“I figured. The whole big and tall and vegetarian thing kind of made sense when you came home smelling like manure. And”—Fitz approaches lifting a hand to my hair—“the hay here was a good giveaway.”
The playful grin on Fitz’s face, combined with the scent of soap on his bare skin, makes me suddenly super self-conscious of my stench.
“I could use a shower,” I say, stepping around him but then halt in place. The gratitude I have can’t wait for clean skin or hair. So hay and all, I whip around, press up on my toes, and hug him. “I know I smell awful. But thank you. Thank you for this. For everything.”
Smiling against his skin, I squeeze my arms tighter around his neck before I drop back down to flat feet and begin heading to my room. I’m almost to the door when Fitz calls my name, and I turn around.
“You don’t need to thank me. Just do me a favor.”