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Contents ( 61)
  1. Contents
  2. Preface
  3. God Must Be a Country Music Fan
  4. A Little Turkey Somewhere
  5. Headed for Two Giant Glaciers
  6. A Dead End
  7. White-Trash Redneck
  8. Golden Ticket
  9. Another Not-So-Good Guy
  10. A Special Purpose
  11. Part of the Plan
  12. Generosity
  13. Getting Worse
  14. Bah Humbug
  15. Thin and Shredded
  16. Opportunities
  17. Chance Encounter
  18. A New Song
  19. Serenity
  20. Under the Speckled Stars
  21. Help
  22. Windows
  23. Stuck in Traffic
  24. Flawed and Broken
  25. Doug’s Bike Shop
  26. It’s Bad When
  27. A Common Bond
  28. A Tiny Fraction of Hope
  29. As Poor as I Am
  30. Opportunities
  31. The Note
  32. A Handshake
  33. Something So Cool
  34. Stripped and Left Barren
  35. Nice on a Bumper Sticker
  36. Family Portrait
  37. Better and Worse
  38. Like a Circus in There
  39. Lost Cause
  40. A Hero
  41. Silent Night
  42. The Storm
  43. The Man Inside
  44. Christmas Gift
  45. My Little One
  46. The Only Thing
  47. The Weight of the World
  48. Receiving
  49. The Sign
  50. All His Heart and All His Soul
  51. Where You’re Going
  52. Home
  53. Under the Tree
  54. Paper Angels
  55. The Shoes
  56. A Piece
  57. Epilogue
  58. The Following July
  59. Acknowledgments
  60. Author’s Note
  61. A Conversation with Jimmy Wayne
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Thomas knocked on the partially closed bedroom door. He heard his mother say “Yeah?” and he walked in. She’d changed into her sweatpants and sweatshirt after a day of interviews that didn’t go particularly well.

“You still up?” Mom asked him.

“I wanted to make sure Sara didn’t bother us.”

“What’s up?”

“I wanted to give you something.”

“Thomas—”

“Here.”

He handed her the box.

“No,” Mom said.

“What?”

“If that’s what I think it is, then no. Absolutely not.”

“Mom.”

“Sara told me what you did. You gave her one of your Christmas gifts?”

“Just open it.”

She stood there, holding the box, shaking her head.

“Thomas—I don’t know—”

“You’re not going to get all emotional, are you?”

She shook her head, laughed, and then wiped at the tears in her eyes.

“I just don’t get you,” she said.

“What?”

“I can’t . . . I mean, where’d you get that? Where?”

He looked at her, confused, then turned his gaze to the bed squished into the corner of the small room, his gift resting on top of it. Thomas felt embarrassed and nervous, like he’d done something wrong.

“What?” he asked.

“Where’d you get that heart of yours? I just—it sure wasn’t from your father. Or me.”

“Just open it.”

She shook her head and then lifted the card attached to the present.

And that was when the tears really flowed.

“Thomas,” she said after reading it.

“Keep going.”

After she opened the present to find the digital camera, Mom placed both the card and camera onto the bed and gave him a hug.

“It’s true,” he said.

Mom hugged him harder than she’d ever hugged him before. She held on to him and began to sob. He wasn’t sure if she was happy or sad.

“I didn’t mean to upset you.”

“I’m not sad, Thomas. I’m not sad. I’m just awestruck.”

She let go of him eventually and picked up the card again.

“Was this your intent all along? When you asked for all of these things?”

“No. Not at first. But I just—it seemed like a good thing to do.”

She read the card again as if she hadn’t read it quite right the first time.

Just like Sara’s card, this one was short and sweet.

To Mom:

Merry Christmas to the prettiest girl

I’ve ever known.

Love,

Thomas

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It was late and Kevin was returning from making sure Gregory was tucked in at Aunt Becky’s house. She would be watching him again while Kevin stayed at the hospital one final night with Jenny. He parked in the familiar parking lot at the hospital. Then he sighed as the cold wind blew against him. For a moment, before opening his car door, he thought about the gifts he finally delivered to the Salvation Army yesterday, then he looked up to the dark heavens.

Sometimes You make us wait too, don’t You?