Chapters (93)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Sarah Clarke
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Note to Readers
- Prologue
- December 2021
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- January 2003
- Chapter 6
- December 2021
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- February 2003
- Chapter 9
- December 2021
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- March 2003
- Chapter 13
- December 2021
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- April 2003
- Chapter 18
- December 2021
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- April 2003
- Chapter 23
- December 2021
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- April 2003
- Chapter 27
- December 2021
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- May 2003
- Chapter 35
- December 2021
- Chapter 36
- May 2003
- Chapter 37
- December 2021
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- April 2003
- Chapter 51
- December 2021
- Chapter 52
- June 2003
- Chapter 53
- December 2021
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- January 2022
- Chapter 57
- Epilogue
- A Letter from Sarah Clarke
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- Dear Reader …
- About the Publisher
Beth collects the champagne glasses with shaking hands; they chime as they clink against each other, and she wishes she could enjoy the thrill of anticipating a fun evening. But she needs a clear head tonight. To work out what to do about Kat. To find out how much Saskia knows, then get rid of her. To stay safe. She peels off the foil cover and untwists the wire muselet. Then she grips the exposed cork and turns it slowly. She finds the ritual calming, and she takes her time to fill each glass with the effervescent liquid.
‘Thanks, darling.’ Saskia accepts the proffered drink. Beth watches her take a sip, then place the glass down on the coffee table and lean back against the sofa. Saskia’s long woollen coat is slung to the side of her, a creased mound of mess, and Beth itches to straighten it. It’s rare for Beth to host girlfriends in the living room, but the open-plan kitchen felt too exposed when Saskia swept into her hallway; she wants to contain the woman’s insatiable curiosity within four solid walls.
‘God, what a terrible time you’re going through at the moment,’ Saskia muses, sighing. ‘So much different crap to contend with. And alone in the house; I can’t believe Simon’s putting his mother’s festive summons before your safety. Mark may not be a threat anymore, but Kat? She is seriously unstable.’ Saskia’s voice trails off as she takes another large sip. ‘Why on earth would she claim to know you, do you think?’
Beth used to consider Saskia the perfect friend, so preoccupied by her personal drama and faddish principles, that she never noticed Beth being tight-lipped about her own life. But she didn’t account for Saskia’s journalistic nose, how the sniff of something not-quite-right sets her off like a terrier. Or that one day she’d become the story. ‘Can I see it, Kat’s phone?’ she asks, trying to sound casual. When Saskia mentioned on the doorstep that she’d found it in the street, Beth knew she must have it. She ached to just demand it, but was aware there’d be a dance involved in getting possession.
Saskia smiles but doesn’t reach for anything. Beth feels a sudden urge to fly over the coffee table and scratch the patronising look off her face. Rip at Saskia’s clothes until she exposes the handset. She shifts on the sofa and runs her nails up and down the heel of her hand, absorbing the thin line of pain.
‘You can, of course,’ Saskia starts slowly, ‘but are you sure you want to? The images are quite chilling; I don’t want to upset you.’
Give me the fucking phone. ‘It can’t be anything worse than I’m imagining,’ Beth explains. ‘I just need to see it for myself.’