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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

Beth collects the champagne glasses with shaking hands; they chime as they clink against each other, and she wishes she could enjoy the thrill of anticipating a fun evening. But she needs a clear head tonight. To work out what to do about Kat. To find out how much Saskia knows, then get rid of her. To stay safe. She peels off the foil cover and untwists the wire muselet. Then she grips the exposed cork and turns it slowly. She finds the ritual calming, and she takes her time to fill each glass with the effervescent liquid.

‘Thanks, darling.’ Saskia accepts the proffered drink. Beth watches her take a sip, then place the glass down on the coffee table and lean back against the sofa. Saskia’s long woollen coat is slung to the side of her, a creased mound of mess, and Beth itches to straighten it. It’s rare for Beth to host girlfriends in the living room, but the open-plan kitchen felt too exposed when Saskia swept into her hallway; she wants to contain the woman’s insatiable curiosity within four solid walls.

‘God, what a terrible time you’re going through at the moment,’ Saskia muses, sighing. ‘So much different crap to contend with. And alone in the house; I can’t believe Simon’s putting his mother’s festive summons before your safety. Mark may not be a threat anymore, but Kat? She is seriously unstable.’ Saskia’s voice trails off as she takes another large sip. ‘Why on earth would she claim to know you, do you think?’

Beth used to consider Saskia the perfect friend, so preoccupied by her personal drama and faddish principles, that she never noticed Beth being tight-lipped about her own life. But she didn’t account for Saskia’s journalistic nose, how the sniff of something not-quite-right sets her off like a terrier. Or that one day she’d become the story. ‘Can I see it, Kat’s phone?’ she asks, trying to sound casual. When Saskia mentioned on the doorstep that she’d found it in the street, Beth knew she must have it. She ached to just demand it, but was aware there’d be a dance involved in getting possession.

Saskia smiles but doesn’t reach for anything. Beth feels a sudden urge to fly over the coffee table and scratch the patronising look off her face. Rip at Saskia’s clothes until she exposes the handset. She shifts on the sofa and runs her nails up and down the heel of her hand, absorbing the thin line of pain.

‘You can, of course,’ Saskia starts slowly, ‘but are you sure you want to? The images are quite chilling; I don’t want to upset you.’

Give me the fucking phone. ‘It can’t be anything worse than I’m imagining,’ Beth explains. ‘I just need to see it for myself.’