Chapters (93)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Sarah Clarke
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Note to Readers
- Prologue
- December 2021
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- January 2003
- Chapter 6
- December 2021
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- February 2003
- Chapter 9
- December 2021
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- March 2003
- Chapter 13
- December 2021
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- April 2003
- Chapter 18
- December 2021
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- April 2003
- Chapter 23
- December 2021
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- April 2003
- Chapter 27
- December 2021
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- May 2003
- Chapter 35
- December 2021
- Chapter 36
- May 2003
- Chapter 37
- December 2021
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- April 2003
- Chapter 51
- December 2021
- Chapter 52
- June 2003
- Chapter 53
- December 2021
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- January 2022
- Chapter 57
- Epilogue
- A Letter from Sarah Clarke
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- Dear Reader …
- About the Publisher
Beth rolls from her side onto her back and lifts her hand to brush Simon’s side of the bed. She’s also not surprised that he’s gone. He will have got up for one of the girls, or the dog, whichever dependent was the first to demand some attention, leaving Beth to sleep because he will have wanted to feel like he’s helping. He’ll be sat in the kitchen now, she imagines, with a coffee and his laptop, the girls munching on Cheerios by his side. He always checks his email first – in case one of the partners at his investment bank has summoned him – but this morning she guesses that he’ll move swiftly on to the mission that consumed his evening yesterday: getting Mark arrested, or at least under a restraining order, and away from their family.
Beth pushes back the duvet and stretches her lean frame against the mattress. She likes that it’s sunny. Yesterday was such a terrible day – seeing her father so ill, letting Ava down, finding her private things tampered with, disappointing Simon – that she didn’t think she could survive it. In that split second when she fainted, she wished it was something more permanent. But by the time she came round, with both Simon and Kat peering over her, wide-eyed with worry, she’d started to feel better. Like she’d been put to the ultimate test, and had made it through, and now a prize was due. The prize of something good happening for once, she prays.
She usually showers before bed, but she’d been too exhausted last night, so the urge is strong now. As she walks through her dressing room on the way to their en suite, she notices that her wardrobe door is shut now; Simon must have noticed and closed it. She shudders at the memory of finding it askew when she got home yesterday, then sets her jaw and looks away. She has never seen Simon as angry as he was yesterday afternoon, and he continued to blaze when no one from the police called him back. She knows he won’t rest until Mark’s under investigation – involving Ava was a red line for him – and of course Beth will support him (she’ll have to now). But she won’t mention the possibility that Mark might have broken in. She will not have the police’s grubby hands looking through her things.
With the pleasure of underfloor-heated stone tiles beneath her feet, Beth leans over and turns the shower on, its powerful jets instantly creating a cloud of steam. She’s slept well, the sun is shining, the children are safe, and Simon is back to take care of her. Today will be a good day, she promises herself. Then she twists the heating dial another couple of degrees, slips out of her pyjamas and steps inside.