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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

‘Pancakes?’ Ava’s eyes light up, and it reminds Kat of herself at that age. She was born with a sweet tooth and loved smearing Nutella on the wafer-thin pancakes that her mum would make as a Sunday treat. That was before her skin enflamed, and sugar became the enemy, and every forbidden bite tasted both better and worse.

‘I’ll do a deal with you,’ she offers. ‘If you get dressed in your smartest school uniform, and do it so quietly that you don’t wake Mummy, I will prepare you the finest banquet of pancakes and Nutella.’

‘Yay!’ the girls cry in unison, their difference of opinion already forgotten. They spin and slide across the floor, then race up the stairs, but on their tiptoes, heeding Kat’s warning not to wake Beth. She stands still, staring at the charcoal and cream runner that zigzags up the stairs, and fantasising for a moment about living here. And then, with a smile of anticipation, of making up for past mistakes, she walks into Beth’s kitchen.

Saskia is stood outside her own house, checking her watch impatiently. When she looks up, her brow creases in confusion. This is good, Kat thinks. This drives a sturdy wedge through Beth and Saskia’s friendship, even if Beth isn’t aware of it. To further prove her point, she reaches out towards the girls, and miraculously Ava takes the bait, curling her dainty fingers around Kat’s rough hand. On Kat’s instruction, which feels surprisingly natural to say she’s hardly even spoken to a child since she was one, the three of them walk across the road.

‘Hello,’ Saskia says in a polite, condescending voice, as though she’s interviewing a prospective cleaner. ‘Where’s Beth?’

‘She’s in bed,’ Ava states solemnly.

Kat watches Saskia’s expression darken. ‘Beth’s fine, just tired,’ she says quickly. She needs to deflect both suspicion and any offer of help from Saskia. ‘I’m walking Luna later and so she asked me to take the girls to school.’ Kat can feel Martha’s quizzical stare, but she doesn’t meet her eyes and eventually the 7-year-old gets distracted by Saskia’s daughter’s new hairband.

‘That must be why Beth didn’t answer my husband’s text,’ Saskia says, looking triumphant for some reason. ‘Well, why don’t I take them? It seems silly both of us going.’

Of course Saskia would say this. Try to wheedle her way further into Beth’s good books, make Kat look like the outsider. ‘I promised Beth that I’d take them,’ Kat counters. ‘But I can walk your two as well if you think it’s silly?’ she adds in an entirely alien tone.

Saskia offers her something between a cool smile and an angry grimace in retaliation. ‘Let’s walk together.’