Back My Perfect Friend
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

Beth hesitates; she doesn’t know how to answer her friend’s question. She knows that she should feel proud of herself for stopping for that man. And that it’s not her fault he died. He was a heroin addict, homeless and must have been in his fifties at least, so the odds were already stacked against him. But she actually feels immensely sad, guilty even. Perhaps it’s the other squatter’s comments, and her previous less-than-charitable behaviour, preying on her mind. ‘I suppose I just wish I’d taken a different route home,’ she says eventually.

‘You did something amazing last night, Beth. You should feel very good about yourself. I bet loads of people would have just walked straight past, assumed he was drunk, or that he was someone else’s problem.’

‘I just want to put it all behind me now,’ Beth says. She can’t help suspecting that Saskia is sweetening her up to extract more details.

They reach the school gates, and as they submerge into the crowd, Beth prepares for the inevitable onslaught of wide smiles and enthusiastic greetings. She knows this is entirely her own fault, a side effect of her being an enthusiastic member of the PTFA and running the face-painting stall at every summer fair, but it still makes her nervous. The sense of scrutiny it creates. But doing the right thing has been a feature of her life since she was forced to move schools for her A levels. She was given a chance to be someone new, someone better, and her gratitude for the opportunity has shaped every decision she’s made since.

But after what happened last night, she can’t cope with being that quasi-celebrity today, so she nods at the other mums, returns their smiles, but looks away before they have chance to strike up a conversation. It works until one of them – Nicole, mother of Rosie in Ava’s class – goes one step further, and curls her fingers around Beth’s arm. Her skin feels hot beneath the woman’s grip.

‘Beth, hi,’ she enthuses. ‘How was last night? Can’t believe I couldn’t make it; bloody Charlie late home from work again.’

Beth applies a warm smile to her face and swallows down bile. She pulls her arm away from Nicole’s fingers and scratches her palms. ‘Fun, yes,’ she mumbles, nodding, wishing her heart rate wouldn’t rise without warning. She wants to take a step backwards, but there are bodies there too; she can sense their heat. ‘Got to rush, you know?’ she manages. She turns towards Martha and Ava, but they’ve already slipped away, carried along by the tide of children tumbling into school. At least with the girls inside, Beth’s job is done. She turns, drops her head and weaves her way through the crowd. But she hasn’t fully escaped; Saskia is still at her shoulder.