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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

“If I spill coffee on you in the kitchen this morning, will you do me a favor in return?”

“What kind of favor?”

“A friend is worried about her friend,” Lulu says. “She wants me to go check on him with her this afternoon.”

“A friend, huh?”

“Yes, Naomi, a friend. Will you help me convince Mom to let me out of the spa? I’ll watch movies with you guys tonight, I promise. This is just—it’s important to Cass.”

“Cass, huh?”

“Yes. Cass.”

“Is this Cass from—” Naomi makes a gesture. Lulu doesn’t know what it’s supposed to mean, but it’s fastest if she puts both of them out of their misery.

“Yes,” she says. “Okay, Naomi?”

“These sweatpants have to be unwearable. I cannot pull off this pink.” The color their mom chose for the lettering is a little Malibu Barbie, even for Lulu’s taste.

“I think they look adorable on you,” Lulu says. “But on my honor, they will be fucking wrecked.”

Cass picks her up at one p.m. sharp. There’s just as much chaos and crap in her Volvo as there has been every time she’s driven Lulu somewhere, and Lulu likes that she recognizes some of it now, that she knows to expect a couple of plastic army figurines tumbled over one another in the cup holder, so that an empty Starbucks cup has to be crammed into the side pocket next to her seat.

“I’ve only been to his house twice before,” Cass says. “I don’t even know if they have Christmas plans. They might not even be home.”

“I’m sure it’s fine,” Lulu says. “You’re being nice. Slightly crazy. But mostly nice.”

Her gift—small, neatly wrapped, not particularly extravagant, even—feels like it’s burning through her bag. She bought it before anything had happened between them, and it already felt crazy presumptuous. Now it’s borderline unacceptable.

Whatever, she reminds herself. I can always return it. And it’s not like it’s unprecedented: Cass did buy Lulu a book for no reason at all.

“No but, like, Ryan’s family has a whole thing about their house,” Cass says, distracting Lulu from worrying. “He’s barely allowed to have people over. His dad is super paranoid that someone will, like, leak details about the property or something. Compromise their security.”

“Not to be the worst,” Lulu says. “But we all know a lot of rich people. I feel like we know how to be cool about nice houses.”

“I don’t know a lot of rich people,” Cass says. “Or I didn’t, before Lowell.”

Lulu tries to be delicate about her response. “Right, but you guys aren’t—I mean, it’s not like you’re broke, right?”