Back Look
Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

A silence falls between them. Lulu breathes in the air, sweet with desert plants—sage, she thinks, and something else she doesn’t recognize—and tries not to think about whether she’s chewing too loudly.

“It’s kind of random that Dylan wanted to watch this now,” she says when she’s swallowed. “Does he know Ryan?”

“Nah. We haven’t been friends for that long. It’s always weird to remember that.”

“Yeah, I was wondering.”

“About me and Ryan?”

“About, why—about how—you guys both seem like you’re, I don’t know—”

“We don’t make friends easily,” Cass says. “We’re the same that way.”

“How did it happen, then, I guess?”

“We were in English together freshman year. We were both new to Lowell—I mean, he knew people, kind of, because he’d grown up here, but we were both new. He was nice to me.” She smiles. “I know. It’s hard to imagine, right?”

“He’s not that bad.”

“He’s not easy. Not for most people. I don’t know. He’s always been easy with me.”

“Do you know why?”

Cass is gazing off into the distance. Her eyes are unfocused, and her voice is soft. “I think Ryan is scared of people,” she says. “He grew up in this weird, isolated world, all private tutors and his parents terrorizing him about not getting kidnapped or used, or—I don’t think he really understands how to make friends, or play the kinds of games people play at these schools.”

These schools are the waters Lulu’s been swimming in her whole life. She knows what Cass means, kind of, but then not really. Isn’t this how everyone is?

“I don’t either,” Cass says. “It wasn’t like that—high stakes like that—where I went to middle school, in Santa Cruz.”

He likes you because you’re innocent, Lulu thinks. But also, He likes you because he thinks he can manipulate you. Which is ungenerous. There’s plenty about Cass to like. She knows that way, way too well.

“Anyway,” Cass says. It’s clear she’s had enough of that subject. “I mentioned Bluebeard to Dylan at the end of this summer, and he got kind of obsessed. He’s majoring in film, so now he’s thinking he’s going to write his thesis on it or something.”

“I’ve actually been looking into it too,” Lulu admits. “After Ryan mentioned it to me that first time, I got curious. You know. About the legacy. And”—she pauses, makes sure she sounds a little overdramatic—“the curse.”

Cass rolls her eyes. “It’s not a curse,” she says. “It’s just a thing that happened.”

“What’s the difference?”

“A curse keeps happening. It stays alive in a place. You’ve been to The Hotel. Does it seem like it has ghosts to you?”

“Not angry ones.”

“Exactly.”