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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

Which is how Lulu ends up sitting at her family’s dining room table with her stepmom and her little sister and her ex . . . whatever, who no one even knows she used to date. Her dad comes home halfway through the meal, which nixes any chance of the quick escape Lulu was hoping for. “Sorry,” she whispers to Cass when she can.

“It’s fine,” Cass says. “It’s actually kind of hilarious, to see Lulu Shapiro acting like an obedient daughter.”

“I’m not obedient.”

“I’ve never seen you this tame.”

Lulu raises one eyebrow. Cass has the grace to blush.

“So Cass, if you go to Lowell, how did you meet Laila?” her dad asks.

“Laila?”

“God, Dad!”

“It’s your name,” he says, and then, to Cass: “I’ve always thought Lulu was silly, but she insists on it.”

“We made friends at a party,” Cass says.

“Cass rescued me.”

“Hmmm,” Cass says, not quite affirmative.

“It was a boring party.”

“All parties are boring.”

“I know that now.”

Finally, finally, the meal ends. Lulu and Cass help clear the dishes. The two of them are alone in the kitchen. It’s the first time they’ve been alone in a room in a while, Lulu thinks.

“We should escape,” she says. “Now, before Deirdre puts on music and turns this into family kitchen cleanup time. She hasn’t had all four of us around a table in years, I think. She’s going to milk it for all it’s worth.”

“I’m down,” Cass says. “Lead the way.”

Lulu looks around the kitchen and realizes they’re trapped. The only way to get up to her room—to any other room in the house, from here—is to go back through the dining room, which will give Deirdre another opportunity to waylay them. The studying for a test excuse hasn’t worked so far. The only thing they can do is go out the side door into the yard, which isn’t perfect, but seems like a better option than the rumble of enforced fun she can hear coming from the dining room.

She motions for Cass to follow her, and Cass does. Outside, the night is sharply cold and black, the sky lit by the city’s muggy glow and a bare sliver of moon. Lulu wishes she knew if it was waxing or waning—it feels like it would mean something either way. But if the sky has signs for her, she doesn’t know how to read them.

Instead she turns to Cass. “Want to see my favorite place on the property?” she says.

“The property,” Cass says. Before Lulu can defend herself, she says, “Of course.”