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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

Usually Lulu would take this for a veiled insult and make a rude, dismissive face at Naomi, but if Naomi wants to hear about what’s going on in Lulu’s life, she’s going to have to get used to hearing about makeup.

“I actually enjoy it,” Lulu says.

“You enjoy it.”

Naomi stands in the bathroom door. She looks uncertain, actually, like she isn’t sure of her welcome in Lulu’s space.

“I like looking nice,” Lulu says. “I like figuring out how to look nice.”

“There isn’t one way?”

“How to make myself feel nice, maybe. Or how I want to feel. Which changes.”

Lulu’s finally picked an outfit: a pale pink dress that she usually wouldn’t pull out during the winter, but feels right, somehow, for tonight. She’s accessorized it with a bunch of gold rings, and her plan is to dust her eyelids and cheekbones with loose shimmering gold powder, to make herself look as soft and glowing as she feels all over. This will probably be something like her and Cass’s public debut. She wants Cass to be proud of her. She wants to be as beautiful as Cass, unaccountably, believes she is.

Lulu looks at the makeup bag on the counter, pens and brushes and pots spilling out of it, and at Naomi’s face, reflected in the mirror in front of her.

“You don’t just hang out with your friends like this? Do your makeup, get ready to go out?”

“I don’t know if you’ve noticed, Lulu, but I do not wear makeup.”

“I know you don’t at home. But at school? When you’re going to parties?” Lulu twists her head around to look at her sister. “Truly never?”

“I don’t know how.”

“Nao, it’s not hard.”

“You think that because you know how to do it.”

“The dumbest girls in the world know how to do makeup. Don’t you hardcore feminists think makeup was invented to keep women stupid and distracted or something?”

“Feminists think a lot of things about makeup,” Naomi says. “I think it’s okay to be interested in whatever you’re interested in.” She’s such a goody-goody, it’s truly incredible. “And,” she adds, “I think yours usually looks really nice.”

“Okay, well, if you want to see a master at work, watch and learn.”

Lulu showered earlier, so her face is bare. She puts on primer and dusts herself with a mineral powder foundation, which she can get away with because her skin has been behaving itself, mostly, recently. She blushes the apples of her cheeks pink and streaks the lines of her face with highlighter.

“See?”

“It’s like a magic trick,” Naomi says. “Watching you do it doesn’t mean I understand how it works.”

“It’s just angles,” Lulu says. “Colors.”

“Hmmmm.”