•  smoked a little more and watched netfilx movie, ‘the bachelorette.’ it was horrible but comforting, like ‘here is your outlet to the world, this is what the rest of the world does, maybe.’ sometimes thought what i didn’t like about kirsten dunst and her friends were because i was stoned. smoked while watching too, i think, due to not thinking i was stoned enough to think the movie was funny or interesting. still did not seem funny or interesting. got obsessed with picturing the ‘making of’ documentary of the movie, how it felt like a dollar store or something. walking around in a dollar store. all the cast members going to their trailers quietly and it’s never sunny enough to look sunny but it’s not cloudy either, it always looks like 3PM on a sunday. just. walking in and out of trailers. dollar store. seemed extremely bleak to think about this as i watched the movie, like how porn was unappealing when i thought about my body, but the movie was still comforting to watch and almost…like…idly concerned with its own bleakness…in a way that seemed uplifting…like a forgotten documentary about some man four people knew…laughing right now, at ellipsisesessess.

•  ate four tortillas heated on the stove with hummus spread on all of them: two plain hummus, one hummus + raw red cabbage, one hummus + avocado. ate entire avocado with lime and salt and most of a ‘personal-sized’ watermelon i didn’t use in smoothie.

•  don’t remember falling asleep (around 3AM according to web history, i think)

•  woke around 12PM. remembered this was ‘willis beach day,’ i had told him to come around 2 or 3PM. didn’t feel like doing anything. felt overwhelmed with mental and physical sensation of depression, body/thoughts both heavy and hard to move around. thought ‘no more weed ever again. it’s always like this.’ the lights were off in my apartment. discovered all the power was off.

•  texted mark about the power being out.

•  discovered, via twitter, that tao had eaten a large dose of mushrooms last night, deleted his twitter, facebook, tumblr accounts, and threw out his macbook due to being ‘posessed by aliens.’ thought ‘sounds about right.’

•  willis texted that it wouldn’t be a good day for the beach and i agreed. made tentative plans to hang out with his roommate at their new apartment tonight. said i wanted to ‘get stuff done’ before that.

•  mark texted he’d come see about the power around 4-4:30PM.

•  willis texted that i should come over because they were making a chicken thing.