a crowd of kids were playing a running game on my street. i live at the end of a dead end street. funny. smiled at the kids and felt close to them in age. attempted eye contact. if they’d seen me they’d probably think ‘creepy adult.’

fed cats and cleaned their box and heated pizza slice and drank a beer and downloaded skype. juilet said she was grading papers and would be available whenever. going to sign in to skype.

MAY 18, 2013

1:20AM: have been talking with juiliet. interview portion was short. wish i had typed jokes. she told me about ‘cock docking’ and showed me pictures, then we showed each other pictures of vestigial tails and ex-boyfriends. i felt happy imagining her life.

drank three beers. forget how we ended up talking about bill clinton. i said we should bet on how old he’s going to be when he dies.

HOW OLD WILL BILL CLINTON BE WHEN HE DIES:

•  megan: 92 (all-in).

•  juliet: 87, 92, 93. definitely not 89, 90, 91, 98.

we didn’t discuss money but he is currently 66.

1:48AM: looked at clock.

2:11AM: fiev beers two pizzasloices

2:57AM: brushed teeth turned off all but rainbow lights has been 40 or something hours since i slept

3:13AM: UTI feeling taped cabinet doors shut to stop alvie from trying to open.

12:00PM: woke, ate chocolate thing, gray sky, going back to sleep.

3:19PM: woke from what felt like three-day long dream. featured sex. bunk beds. race track/locker room. ate more of the chocolate thing. it’s almost gone. shirley is kneading next to me, running her motor (purring) hard.

4:18PM: cleaned cats’ water device.

4:46PM: ate bonsai dwarf pizza. typing comments on tao’s flickr photostream via ‘it’s always nice to see someone has commented.’

5:00PM: do not foresee leaving apartment today.

7:03PM: commissioned tao to make a version of ‘fucked tuna’ art, did other internet things, fed cats, read ‘slapstick.’ thinking of today as ‘getting ready’ for navy tomorrow.

7:27PM: zachary texted ‘Is you in ny and have a set of hump’s keys with you’ i texted ‘Yeah/yeah.’ don’t want to drive or shower.

7:41PM: mom is visiting tuesday for two days. tomorrow i’ll go to the navy and get car inspected. then it’ll be tuesday and mom and i will go out on the town. good two days coming up.

9:24PM: ate an orange.

MAY 20, 2013

1:28AM: have been reading ‘slapstick.’