Chapters (129)
- Title Page
- Copyright Page
- Acknowledgements
- CONTENTS
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Chapter 86
- Chapter 87
- Chapter 88
- Chapter 89
- Chapter 90
- Chapter 91
- Chapter 92
- Chapter 93
- Chapter 94
- Chapter 95
- Chapter 96
- Chapter 97
- Chapter 98
- Chapter 99
- Chapter 100
- Chapter 101
- Chapter 102
- Chapter 103
- Chapter 104
- Chapter 105
- Chapter 106
- Chapter 107
- Chapter 108
- Chapter 109
- Chapter 110
- Chapter 111
- Chapter 112
- Chapter 113
- Chapter 114
- Chapter 115
- Chapter 116
- Chapter 117
- Chapter 118
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Lauren sighed to herself. Another long, empty Sunday stretched ahead of her. It was the day of the week she hated most. Monday to Friday she could virtually guarantee seeing Jude – even if it was just for a few snatched moments. It was difficult working together, since they had to be discreet. But occasionally, when they were sure they were alone, their fingers could linger in places where they couldn’t go in public, and they might steal a kiss in the office kitchen – or Jude might let his hand rest in the small of her back for longer than was considered appropriate for mere colleagues without someone shouting, ‘Sexual harassment!’
Sundays were always more difficult. Sometimes on a Saturday he could call into her flat, having concocted some tale about an errand that needed to be run or some work that urgently needed to be attended to. But on Sundays Jude could rarely get away from family duties. And, as a consequence, that was the day that chewed her up the most.
If she wasn’t very careful, her mind could stray into terrible territory where she could see images of Jude playing Happy Families with his wife and kids. His children – Benjy, ten, and Daisy, eight, – were at that age where he’d be taking them to the cinema, maybe playing football on the Heath near where they lived. Sometimes she had to stop herself from going over there for a walk, just to try to catch a glimpse of him to see her through the day. Lauren knew that it wasn’t what he really wanted from his life – he wanted nothing more than to be with her – but he was a very devoted father and took his responsibilities seriously. She loved him for that too.
He didn’t love his wife Georgia she also knew that. But some days – Sundays – it was hard to see why.
Lauren had met her on several occasions over the years. Work dos, where it was impossible for their paths not to cross. And she had hated her every single time. Georgia was pretty, vivacious and charming company. Everyone in the company was besotted with her. Everyone except Jude, of course. Oh, he put on a good enough show when he needed to, but Lauren knew differently. The attentiveness, the gentle touching, it was all a show, a sham, an illusion. When they were at home alone, things were very different. Georgia wasn’t funny or flirty then. At home she was cold, aloof, unresponsive. Jude had told her often enough while he was lying in Lauren’s bed. Why would he come to her, if things weren’t seriously messed up?