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I do have an answer but I’m not sure how it’s going to sound.

‘I was living out at the time. It was cold – I needed a day or two to put myself together. And Grace had seen me on the streets and gave me her spare key. She was going away for a while. Said I could use her place to clean up. That must have been why I was there.’ I think of the key I had on me when I was arrested. I don’t know what’s happened to it.

Janine raises her eyebrows at me. ‘So, then what? Did she not go away in the end?’

‘I don’t know. I don’t remember it the way I’m telling it. In my head, it wasn’t her place, it was just an empty house that I used as a squat because I had nowhere to stay. I didn’t even expect it to be empty, it just was. I mean I think the door was unlocked.’

She had been taking down what I had said but now she has stopped. ‘I don’t know what to do with what you’re telling me, Xander. Did you have a key or was it unlocked?’

‘I don’t know,’ I say. I feel the blood gather into my cheeks, flushing.

She sighs. ‘Okay, Xander. My advice is that you go “no comment”. We might need to go down the psych route here. I know the police thought you were fit to be interviewed but this doesn’t feel right to me.’

‘Psych? You as well? I’m not mad. And I’m not seeing a psychiatrist.’

‘It’s up to you, but this is serious. They’re going to be charging you with murder. You can’t dick around here, you’re looking at life.’

‘Charging? They’re charging me?’ I say, shocked. ‘I thought they might decide there wasn’t enough to charge me.’

‘We have to be prepared for the possibility.’

‘But I thought you said they had nothing.’

‘That was before they searched Sebastian’s house. Now they’ve got something. And it’s not looking good.’

‘But Seb stopped them. He said that the warrant wasn’t right.’

‘Well, whatever time they had was all they needed.’

36

Thursday

By the time my consultation with Jan is over, it is noon. I watch her finishing up her notes and marking certain passages with a yellow highlighter. I feel as if I am in competent hands, but I know that even competent hands can’t produce magic.

‘Thanks, Jan,’ I say, standing to leave. ‘It’s a lot to think about, but I’ll have better answers in a day or two once I have thought it through.’