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Chapters (82)
  1. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  2. 1. Claire
  3. CLAIRE
  4. 2. Keller
  5. KELLER
  6. 3. Claire
  7. CLAIRE
  8. 4. Claire
  9. CLAIRE
  10. 5. Claire
  11. CLAIRE
  12. 6. Keller
  13. KELLER
  14. 7. Claire
  15. CLAIRE
  16. 8. Claire
  17. CLAIRE
  18. 9. Keller
  19. KELLER
  20. 10. Claire
  21. CLAIRE
  22. 11. Claire
  23. CLAIRE
  24. 12. Claire
  25. CLAIRE
  26. 13. Claire
  27. CLAIRE
  28. 14. Claire
  29. CLAIRE
  30. 15. Claire
  31. CLAIRE
  32. 16. Claire
  33. CLAIRE
  34. 17. Claire
  35. CLAIRE
  36. 18. Claire
  37. CLAIRE
  38. 19. Keller
  39. KELLER
  40. 20. Claire
  41. CLAIRE
  42. 21. Claire
  43. CLAIRE
  44. 22. Claire
  45. CLAIRE
  46. 23. Keller
  47. KELLER
  48. 24. Claire
  49. CLAIRE
  50. 25. Claire
  51. CLAIRE
  52. 26. Claire
  53. CLAIRE
  54. 27. Claire
  55. CLAIRE
  56. 28. Claire
  57. CLAIRE
  58. 29. Claire
  59. CLAIRE
  60. 30. Claire
  61. CLAIRE
  62. 31. Claire
  63. CLAIRE
  64. 32. Keller
  65. KELLER
  66. 33. Claire
  67. CLAIRE
  68. 34. Claire
  69. CLAIRE
  70. 35. Claire
  71. CLAIRE
  72. 36. Keller
  73. KELLER
  74. 37. Claire
  75. CLAIRE
  76. 38. Claire
  77. CLAIRE
  78. 39. Keller
  79. KELLER
  80. EPILOGUE
  81. KELLER
  82. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

“You’ll drive what I tell you to drive.”

My temper’s rising. “I’m not going to drive some crazy, unsafe thing I can’t even handle. I’m eighteen. I’ve been driving my grandma’s shitty, slow car for two years. The Audi is perfect, and I am keeping it.”

It occurs to me that it’s the first time I’m that firm about…well, anything. So far, he’s told me how this thing between us was going to work, and I’ve accepted it. But really? A brand-new car, just because he wants to be the one in charge, the one who controls and chooses what I do?

In truth, I haven’t minded so far. The room’s great. I love most of his decisions.

But I like the car. It’s a cute baby blue.

“Fine.”

I lift my eyes to his, baffled. He backed off?

“Really?”

He sighs. “If you like the car that much, whatever. But I’d really rather not hear from someone else that you have a need you haven’t fulfilled when that’s my part of our bargain. I define need not as the strict necessities for survival, but at whatever you should have to make your life pleasant, easy, and fulfilling. You needed a car. Clear?”

I slowly nod, because I think I understand him a little better. He does take that…commitment?…he made to me seriously.

“Your kitchen,” I say. “It’s pretty well equipped, but it doesn’t have a good mixer. There’s one downstairs, but I’m guessing Claudio needs it. I would…like one.” I swallow. “To bake. Try Dez’s tricks.”

I’m biting my lower lip. I don’t need a mixer, by my definition. But by his? I think I might.

He smiles at me. “If you plan on making more things like what you brought today, you definitely should get whatever you need.”

Keller takes another one of the towels from under the sink—I make a mental note that they’re kept there—and dries his hair. “You know what kind you want?”

“Dez has a Thermomix. It heats things up as well as mixing them. But it looks fancy and complicated. Maybe something like a KitchenAid?”

He nods. “You should look around the kitchen before you place the order. See if there’s anything else you’d like.”

“Will do.”

This is…strange. We had an argument. Over the fact that he wants to buy me whatever I want—although he uses the word “need.”

Half out of curiosity, half to fill the silence, I ask, “Is your dad seeing your sister?”

“No.” He’s not bothered by the question. “I’m not saying they don’t fuck occasionally. I’m sure they do. But they’re both doms, so they wouldn’t fit well together. They know that.”

“That’s crazy.” I shake my head.