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Chapters (90)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Praise for Malorie Blackman’s books
  4. Also available by Malorie Blackman for young adult readers
  5. Dedication
  6. Family Tree
  7. Epigraph
  8. NOW
  9. one. Tobey
  10. two. Libby
  11. Then
  12. three. Place Names
  13. four. Isabella Monroe
  14. five. Kellan Bruemann
  15. NOW
  16. six. Libby
  17. Daily Shouter Online
  18. Then
  19. seven. Patrix Ellerman
  20. eight. Tobey Durbridge
  21. nine. Circulating
  22. NOW
  23. ten. Troy
  24. Then
  25. eleven. Owen Dowd
  26. twelve. Eva Foxton
  27. thirteen. Tom Jeavons
  28. NOW
  29. Then
  30. fourteen. Sephy Ealing
  31. fifteen. The Night That Would Never End
  32. NOW
  33. sixteen. Sephy
  34. seventeen. Libby
  35. eighteen. Sephy
  36. nineteen. Tobey
  37. twenty. Sephy
  38. twenty-one. Libby
  39. twenty-two. Troy
  40. twenty-three. Libby
  41. twenty-four. Tobey
  42. twenty-five. Troy
  43. twenty-six. Callie
  44. twenty-seven. Tobey
  45. twenty-eight. Troy
  46. twenty-nine. Callie
  47. thirty. Sephy
  48. thirty-one. Libby
  49. thirty-two. Sephy
  50. thirty-three. Tobey
  51. thirty-four. Sephy
  52. thirty-five. Troy
  53. thirty-six. Callie
  54. thirty-seven. Tobey
  55. thirty-eight. Callie
  56. thirty-nine. Sephy
  57. forty. Tobey
  58. forty-one. Sephy
  59. forty-two. Troy
  60. forty-three. Callie
  61. forty-four. Sephy
  62. forty-five. Libby
  63. forty-six. Sephy
  64. forty-seven. Troy
  65. forty-eight. Tobey
  66. forty-nine. Sephy
  67. fifty. Libby
  68. fifty-one. Sephy
  69. fifty-two. Callie
  70. fifty-three. Tobey
  71. fifty-four. Sephy
  72. fifty-five. Troy
  73. fifty-six. Libby
  74. fifty-seven. Callie
  75. fifty-eight. Sephy
  76. fifty-nine. Tobey
  77. sixty. Callie
  78. sixty-one. Sephy
  79. sixty-two. Tobey
  80. sixty-three. Sephy
  81. sixty-four. Tobey
  82. sixty-five. Troy
  83. sixty-six. Callie
  84. THREE MONTHS LATER
  85. sixty-seven. Tobey
  86. sixty-eight. Troy
  87. sixty-nine. Callie
  88. seventy. Libby
  89. Acknowledgements
  90. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘No! I’m not doing this again. This is all water under the bridge so can we let it go – please?’

‘You’re renowned for a lot of things, Callie, but a forgiving nature isn’t one of them. You could give a masterclass on bearing a grudge.’

‘So your inability to keep your trousers zipped up is my fault?’ Indignation gripped me.

Tobey sighed. ‘No. I take full responsibility for my actions. But, if you could’ve forgiven me for what I did, I would’ve been your slave for life.’

‘I did forgive you. I forgave you at the time.’

‘Yeah? You know what? Your forgiveness has a real bitter aftertaste to it.’

‘I forgave you, Tobey. That doesn’t mean it was easy to forget what you did. You slept with Misty at my birthday party to spite me.’

‘It wasn’t to spite you. Not everything is about you.’

‘That was. You deliberately set out to hurt me and you succeeded.’

‘And I’ve apologized – more than once. You threw away everything we had and could’ve had over something that meant nothing, Callie. Less than nothing.’

‘Don’t you get it? It meant something to me. And it meant something to Misty because she became pregnant with Libby.’ I slow-clapped. ‘Congratulations. You got to walk away with the fewest scars.’

‘You couldn’t be more wrong,’ Tobey said. ‘You broke up with me to punish me at the time and, by cutting me out of your life, you’ve been punishing me ever since. Callie, you once told me you hoped my child would die. Well, congratulations – you might just get your wish.’

Every part of me froze – except the unbidden tears that immediately flowed over my cheeks. Stricken, I looked at Tobey, scarcely able to believe what he’d just said to me.

‘Hellsake. I’m sorry, Callie,’ Tobey said, running unsteady fingers through his hair again.

‘Y-you really believe that of me?’ I whispered.

‘No. Of course not. I’m sorry.’ He hugged me to him and I didn’t push him off. Instead, I buried my face in his shoulder and cried my heart out – for the hurt then and the pain now and all the lost years in between. Tobey stroked my back, whispering words of apology over and over.

It took too long, but I finally heard them.

When at last the stream of tears ceased, I wiped my face with the back of my hand, noting how one side of Tobey’s burgundy T-shirt was now considerably darker.

‘You’re going to have to change your shirt,’ I said, embarrassed.

‘Not until you say I’m forgiven,’ said Tobey.

I looked him in the eyes. ‘I forgive you, Tobey.’

He smiled. I smiled back, feeling strangely lighter, but then I had just cried half a bucket of tears all over him.

‘I’ll wash my face while you change your top,’ I told him.