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  1. ACCEPTANCE
  2. JEFF VANDERMEER
  3. Dedication
  4. Table of Contents
  5. 000X: THE DIRECTOR, TWELFTH EXPEDITION
  6. PART I RANGE LIGHT
  7. 0001: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  8. 0002: GHOST BIRD
  9. 0003: THE DIRECTOR
  10. 0004: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  11. 0005: CONTROL
  12. 0006: THE DIRECTOR
  13. 0007: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  14. 0008: GHOST BIRD
  15. 0009: THE DIRECTOR
  16. 0010: CONTROL
  17. PART II FIXED LIGHT
  18. 01: THE BRIGHTNESS
  19. 02: THE MOANING CREATURE
  20. 03: THE ISLAND
  21. 04: THE OWL
  22. 05: THE SEEKER & SURVEILLANCE BANDITS
  23. 06: THE PASSAGE OF TIME, AND PAIN
  24. PART III OCCULTING LIGHT
  25. 0011: GHOST BIRD
  26. 0012: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  27. 0013: CONTROL
  28. 0014: THE DIRECTOR
  29. 0015: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  30. 0016: GHOST BIRD
  31. 0017: THE DIRECTOR
  32. 0018: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  33. 0019: CONTROL
  34. 0020: THE DIRECTOR
  35. 0021: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  36. 0022: GHOST BIRD
  37. 0023: THE DIRECTOR
  38. 0024: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  39. 0025: CONTROL
  40. 0026: THE DIRECTOR
  41. 0027: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  42. 0028: GHOST BIRD
  43. 000X: THE DIRECTOR
  44. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  45. About the Author
  46. PRAISE FOR THE SOUTHERN REACH TRILOGY
  47. ALSO BY JEFF VANDERMEER
  48. Credits
  49. Copyright
  50. About the Publisher

She was a solid, tall presence for her age, big for nine—“Nine and a half!”—and although Gloria sometimes wobbled on those rocks there was rarely any wobble in her young mind, which Saul admired. His own middle-aged brain sometimes slipped a gear or two.

So there she was again, a sturdy figure on the rocks, in her winter-weather gear—jeans, hooded jacket and sweater underneath, thick boots for wide feet—as he finished with the boat and brought compost around back in the wheelbarrow. She was talking to him. She was always talking to him, ever since she’d started coming by about a year ago.

“You know my ancestors lived here,” she said. “Mama says they lived right here, where the lighthouse is.” She had a deep and level voice for one so young, which sometimes startled him.

“So did mine, child,” Saul told her, upturning the wheelbarrow load into the compost pile. Although truth was, the other side of his family had been an odd combination of rumrunners and fanatics who he liked to say, down at the bar, “had come to this land fleeing religious freedom.”

After considering Saul’s assertion for a moment, Gloria said, “Not before mine.”

“Does it matter?” He noticed he’d missed some caulking on the boat.

The child frowned; he could feel her frown at his back, it was that powerful. “I don’t know.” He looked over at her, saw she’d stopped hopping between rocks, had decided that teetering on a dangerously sharp one made more sense. The sight made his stomach lurch, but he knew she never slipped, even though she seemed in danger of it many times, and as many times as he’d talked to her about it, she’d always ignored him.

“I think so,” she said, picking up the conversation. “I think it does.”

“I’m one-eighth Indian,” he said. “I was here, too. Part of me.” For what that was worth. A distant relative had told him about the lighthouse keeper’s job, it was true, but no one else had wanted it.

“So what,” she said, jumping to another sharp rock, balancing atop it, arms for a moment flailing and Saul taking a couple of steps closer to her out of fear.

She annoyed him much of the time, but he hadn’t yet been able to shake her loose. Her father lived in the middle of the country somewhere, and her mother worked two jobs from a bungalow up the coast. The mother had to drive to far-off Bleakersville at least once a week, and probably figured her kid could manage on her own every now and again. Especially if the lighthouse keeper was looking after her. And the lighthouse held a kind of fascination for Gloria that he hadn’t been able to break with his boring shed maintenance and wheelbarrow runs to the compost pile.

In the winter, too, she would be by herself a lot anyway—out on the mudflats just to the west, poking at fiddler crab holes with a stick or chasing after a half-domesticated doe, or peering at coyote or bear scat as if it held some secret. Whatever was on offer.