Contents (50)
- ACCEPTANCE
- JEFF VANDERMEER
- Dedication
- Table of Contents
- 000X: THE DIRECTOR, TWELFTH EXPEDITION
- PART I RANGE LIGHT
- 0001: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0002: GHOST BIRD
- 0003: THE DIRECTOR
- 0004: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0005: CONTROL
- 0006: THE DIRECTOR
- 0007: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0008: GHOST BIRD
- 0009: THE DIRECTOR
- 0010: CONTROL
- PART II FIXED LIGHT
- 01: THE BRIGHTNESS
- 02: THE MOANING CREATURE
- 03: THE ISLAND
- 04: THE OWL
- 05: THE SEEKER & SURVEILLANCE BANDITS
- 06: THE PASSAGE OF TIME, AND PAIN
- PART III OCCULTING LIGHT
- 0011: GHOST BIRD
- 0012: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0013: CONTROL
- 0014: THE DIRECTOR
- 0015: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0016: GHOST BIRD
- 0017: THE DIRECTOR
- 0018: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0019: CONTROL
- 0020: THE DIRECTOR
- 0021: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0022: GHOST BIRD
- 0023: THE DIRECTOR
- 0024: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0025: CONTROL
- 0026: THE DIRECTOR
- 0027: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
- 0028: GHOST BIRD
- 000X: THE DIRECTOR
- ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
- About the Author
- PRAISE FOR THE SOUTHERN REACH TRILOGY
- ALSO BY JEFF VANDERMEER
- Credits
- Copyright
- About the Publisher
At first all he saw was a vast mound of papers and what looked like notebooks that now rose from the watch room, a great behemoth, a disheveled library of shadow and reflection that leaped into and out of focus—ghosts and figments, curling and questing, there but not quite there, a record that he did not understand because it did not yet exist.
Then his eyes adjusted and the source of the light coalesced: a blossom. A pure white blossom with eight petals, which had unfurled from the top of a familiar plant, whose roots disappeared into the papers below. The plant that had enticed him on the lighthouse lawn, so long ago, to reach down, drawn by a glitter, a gleam.
An almost holy intensity rose from somewhere within and filled Saul up, along with a dizziness. Light was leaking out of him now, too, coursing down through the trapdoor to communicate with what lay below, and there came the sensation of something pulling him close, holding him tight … of recognizing him.
In rebellion against that, he rose from his crouch, arms out to the side for balance, teetering there on the edge of the trapdoor, staring down into that swirl of petals until he could resist no more, was falling into the pure white corona of a circle of fire, into a congregation of flames, a burning so pure that turning to ash was a kind of relief, engulfed by light that consecrated not just him but everything around him, anchoring receiver and received.
There shall be a fire that knows your name, and in the presence of the strangling fruit, its dark flame shall acquire every part of you.
When he regained consciousness, he was lying on the floor of the watch room, on his back, looking up. There was no mound of notebooks. There was no impossible flower.
Just the bodies of Henry and Suzanne, with no apparent wounds upon them, expressions blank and more haunting because of it. He recoiled from them, crawled away from them, staring. In the shadows there might have been what looked like the limp, desiccated remains of a plant, but he had no desire other than to leave that space.
He clambered up the ladder.
A figure in silhouette stood in front of the open door to the railing. A figure with a gun.
Impossibly, it was Henry.
“I thought you’d be gone longer, Saul,” Henry said, in a distant tone. “I thought you might not even come back tonight. That maybe you’d go over to Charlie’s, except Charlie is out fishing—and Gloria’s staying with her father. Not that she would be out this late anyway, or be of much help to you. But just so you know where we stand.”
“You killed Suzanne,” Saul said, unbelieving even now.
“She wanted to kill me. She didn’t believe in what I found. None of them believed. Not even you.”
“You killed yourself.” Your twin. Knowing that even if it made a difference, he couldn’t reach the flare gun in time, or even make it two steps into a headlong flight down the stairs before Henry would shoot him, too.