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  1. ACCEPTANCE
  2. JEFF VANDERMEER
  3. Dedication
  4. Table of Contents
  5. 000X: THE DIRECTOR, TWELFTH EXPEDITION
  6. PART I RANGE LIGHT
  7. 0001: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  8. 0002: GHOST BIRD
  9. 0003: THE DIRECTOR
  10. 0004: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  11. 0005: CONTROL
  12. 0006: THE DIRECTOR
  13. 0007: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  14. 0008: GHOST BIRD
  15. 0009: THE DIRECTOR
  16. 0010: CONTROL
  17. PART II FIXED LIGHT
  18. 01: THE BRIGHTNESS
  19. 02: THE MOANING CREATURE
  20. 03: THE ISLAND
  21. 04: THE OWL
  22. 05: THE SEEKER & SURVEILLANCE BANDITS
  23. 06: THE PASSAGE OF TIME, AND PAIN
  24. PART III OCCULTING LIGHT
  25. 0011: GHOST BIRD
  26. 0012: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  27. 0013: CONTROL
  28. 0014: THE DIRECTOR
  29. 0015: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  30. 0016: GHOST BIRD
  31. 0017: THE DIRECTOR
  32. 0018: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  33. 0019: CONTROL
  34. 0020: THE DIRECTOR
  35. 0021: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  36. 0022: GHOST BIRD
  37. 0023: THE DIRECTOR
  38. 0024: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  39. 0025: CONTROL
  40. 0026: THE DIRECTOR
  41. 0027: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  42. 0028: GHOST BIRD
  43. 000X: THE DIRECTOR
  44. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  45. About the Author
  46. PRAISE FOR THE SOUTHERN REACH TRILOGY
  47. ALSO BY JEFF VANDERMEER
  48. Credits
  49. Copyright
  50. About the Publisher

The crab sifted through something in the sand. The camouflaged fish risked a slow walk on stickery fins like drab half-opened fans, making for the shadow-shelter of a tiny ledge of rock. One of the starfish, as if captured via timelapse photography, withdrew at a hypnotically slow speed into the water, until only the tips of two arms lay exposed and glistening.

Finally Gloria said, “Why are you down here and not working by the shed or in the tower?”

“I don’t feel like working today.” Images from old illuminated manuscripts, of comets hurtling through the sky, from the books in his father’s house. The reverberation and recoil of the beach exploding under his feet. The strange creatures in the sand. What message should he take from that?

“Yeah, I don’t always want to go to school,” she said. “But at least you get money.”

“I do get money, that’s true,” he said. “And they’re never going to give you money to go to school.”

“They should give me money. I have to put up with a lot.” He wondered just how much. It might well be a lot.

“School’s important,” he said, because he felt he should say it, as if Gloria’s mother stood right behind them, tapping her foot.

Gloria considered that a moment, nudged him in the ribs in a way as familiar as if they were drinking buddies down at the village bar.

“I told my mom this is a school, too, but that didn’t work.”

“What’s ‘this’?”

“The tidal pools. The forest. The trails. All of it. Most of the time it’s true I’m just goofing off, but I’m learning things, too.”

Saul could imagine how that conversation had gone. “You’re not going to get any grades here.” Warming to the idea: “Although I guess the bears might give you grades for watching out for them.”

She kind of leaned back to get a better look at him, as if reappraising him. “That’s stupid. Are you feeling okay?”

“Yeah, this whole conversation is stupid.”

“Are you still feeling different?”

“What? No. No, I’m fine, Gloria.”

They watched the fish for a bit after that. Something about their conversation, the way they’d moved too fast or been too loud, had made the fish retreat into the sand so now only its eyes looked up at them.

“There are things the lighthouse teaches me, though,” Gloria said, wrenching Saul out of his thoughts.

“To stand up straight and tall and project light out of your head toward the sea?”

She giggled at that, giving him too much credit for an answer he’d meant at least half ironically.

“No. Here’s what the lighthouse teaches me. Be quiet and let me tell you. The lighthouse teaches me to work hard, to keep my room clean, to be honest, and to be nice to people.” Then, reflecting, looking down at her feet. “My room is a mess and I lie sometimes and I’m not always nice to people, but that’s the idea.”