Chapters (105)
- Cover
- Title Page
- Epigraph
- Before it All Started
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Four Weeks Ago
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Now
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Four Weeks Ago
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Now
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Three Days Ago
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Now
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Two Hours Later
- Chapter 70
- Chapter 71
- Chapter 72
- Chapter 73
- Chapter 74
- Chapter 75
- Chapter 76
- Chapter 77
- Chapter 78
- Chapter 79
- Chapter 80
- Chapter 81
- Chapter 82
- Chapter 83
- Chapter 84
- Chapter 85
- Chapter 86
- Chapter 87
- One Week Later
- Chapter 88
- Chapter 89
- Acknowledgements
- Keep Reading …
- Books by Ross Welford
- About the Publisher
We’re on the Tyne path, walking home together, before either of us says anything else. It’s as if Susan is waiting, but she’s not impatient. She could probably wait for days. She walks close enough to me that I can smell her appley hair.
‘Thank you,’ I say, eventually, after the silence has become too awkward for me. She nods and waits some more. ‘Why … why did you say all that?’ I ask. ‘You know, lie for me? I didn’t think you lied. Buddhism rules an’ that.’
‘It is not a rule, Malky. It is a guideline. And I lied because I am worried for you.’
‘You think I’ve gone mad?’
She pauses long enough for me to guess that ‘Yes’ is at least part of her answer. But instead, she shakes her head and says, ‘No,’ which is kind of her.
Then she adds a ‘but’, at which point we hear a voice behind us, and whatever the ‘but’ was going to be is left hanging.
‘Hello, you two! Kenneth – look who it is!’
We both spin round to see Andi pushing old Kenneth McKinley in a wheelchair, with Dennis ambling lazily by their side.
‘Kenneth. Do you see who it is?’
The old man lifts his chin from his chest and peers at us.
Andi says, ‘It’s the children from the weekend, Kenneth. Susan and Malcolm.’
At the mention of my name, his head straightens a bit more. He repeats what he had said the day I met him. ‘Malcolm? Good Scottish name that, eh, lad?’ His speech is soft and slurred.
‘He’s not having such a good day today, are you, Kenneth?’
The old man grunts in response and Andi leans over to zip up his thick fleecy top. I’m trying not to make eye contact with Dennis, who has flopped on to his belly at the first chance, but seems to be watching me suspiciously.
‘It’s nice to see you again, Mr McKinley,’ says Susan, loudly.
‘I’m not flamin’ deaf, lassie. Ninety yearsh old, but I can hear you fine.’ Seems like he’s back to being a grouchy old man.
Susan, though, is not put off. She crouches down next to his wheelchair and takes one of his bony hands in both of hers, looking at his face with her head tipped to one side. She says, ‘You began to tell us something the other day. Before your son – Uri – called. You were talking about the limits of the unconscious mind. I was hoping I might hear more.’
The old man shifts his eyes to look sideways at her. Then he reaches up and whips off his mauve-tinted glasses. Except that the arm of the specs gets caught on one of his big old-man’s ears, making it ping back against his head. It’s like he was trying to be dramatic, but didn’t quite pull it off.