Back When We Got Lost in Dreamland
Chapters (105)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Epigraph
  4. Before it All Started
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Four Weeks Ago
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. Chapter 8
  14. Chapter 9
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Now
  21. Chapter 15
  22. Chapter 16
  23. Four Weeks Ago
  24. Chapter 17
  25. Chapter 18
  26. Chapter 19
  27. Chapter 20
  28. Chapter 21
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Chapter 23
  31. Chapter 24
  32. Chapter 25
  33. Chapter 26
  34. Now
  35. Chapter 27
  36. Chapter 28
  37. Three Days Ago
  38. Chapter 29
  39. Chapter 30
  40. Chapter 31
  41. Chapter 32
  42. Chapter 33
  43. Chapter 34
  44. Chapter 35
  45. Chapter 36
  46. Chapter 37
  47. Chapter 38
  48. Chapter 39
  49. Chapter 40
  50. Chapter 41
  51. Chapter 42
  52. Chapter 43
  53. Chapter 44
  54. Chapter 45
  55. Chapter 46
  56. Chapter 47
  57. Chapter 48
  58. Chapter 49
  59. Chapter 50
  60. Chapter 51
  61. Chapter 52
  62. Chapter 53
  63. Now
  64. Chapter 54
  65. Chapter 55
  66. Chapter 56
  67. Chapter 57
  68. Chapter 58
  69. Chapter 59
  70. Chapter 60
  71. Chapter 61
  72. Chapter 62
  73. Chapter 63
  74. Chapter 64
  75. Chapter 65
  76. Chapter 66
  77. Chapter 67
  78. Chapter 68
  79. Chapter 69
  80. Two Hours Later
  81. Chapter 70
  82. Chapter 71
  83. Chapter 72
  84. Chapter 73
  85. Chapter 74
  86. Chapter 75
  87. Chapter 76
  88. Chapter 77
  89. Chapter 78
  90. Chapter 79
  91. Chapter 80
  92. Chapter 81
  93. Chapter 82
  94. Chapter 83
  95. Chapter 84
  96. Chapter 85
  97. Chapter 86
  98. Chapter 87
  99. One Week Later
  100. Chapter 88
  101. Chapter 89
  102. Acknowledgements
  103. Keep Reading …
  104. Books by Ross Welford
  105. About the Publisher

I clear my throat to speak and it sounds loud in the huge room.

‘Where is he? I … I mean, his body?’

Andi is staring out of the huge bay window and doesn’t turn round. ‘The funeral directors came first thing. It was all written down. He had moments of pure clarity, when he knew he didn’t have long, and he could be very precise. There’ll be a funeral, but, like I say, he didn’t have any family.’

‘There’s Uri,’ I say.

‘What?’ says Andi.

‘Uri. His son.’

Andi sits down heavily on the green buttoned sofa. ‘Malky, Susan. There is no Uri. At least, not now. Kenneth lived in his own little world half the time. Uri died years ago. Decades. Kenneth used to comfort himself by imagining he was still with us.’

‘But … the phone calls?’ I say, pointing at the old telephone next to his chair.

‘A remote timer. One of Kenneth’s … fans, I suppose, from the old days, set it up for him years ago, apparently. It would ring every few days at the same time. He knew, of course, but he just liked pretending. He used to say he could reconnect with his son in his … his …’

She trails off, staring out at the sea.

‘In his dreams?’ I say, and she turns back sharply.

‘Yes. Exactly. It was all part of, I don’t know, his “cosmic vision”. His hippy stuff. You know he used to be on the stage?’

Susan and I nod. ‘We saw a bit on that tape,’ she says.

‘I thought that was what that was about,’ murmurs Andi. ‘He did a mystery and mind-reading act, I think. Reckoned he could float!’

I remember the TV show we watched. I say, ‘Wasn’t it all just a trick?’

‘Eeh, I don’t know! Probably! But then he got into all of this dream carry-on, with that thing above his bed, and he gave up show business, and he ended up here, forgotten. And now … now … Oh, sorry, kids.’

Andi digs out a tissue from her sleeve and starts dabbing at her eyes. ‘He was a difficult old so-and-so sometimes, but his lonely heart was in the right place and I’m sad he’s gone.’

Almost instinctively, I think, Susan goes over to Andi and sits next to her. She doesn’t hug her or anything: she just sits. Andi swallows and smiles bravely.

‘May I use the bathroom?’ I say. I’m now acutely aware that the minutes are ticking by until Dad will be home. It’s also not impossible that Fit Billy has been upstairs to check on me and seen that I’m not there.

‘Yes, of course. Out in the hall on the left.’ Andi doesn’t turn round as I leave.