Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Spring 2019
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Summer 2019
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Autumn 2019
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Winter 2020
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Spring 2020
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Acknowledgments
- Reading Group Guide
- Copyright
My husband had been blessed with a quick metabolism and a natural wiriness. Over the course of our years together, he’d worked out sporadically, usually staying fit with games of pickup basketball or bike rides with his buddies. As I watched him on the floor strengthening his core, I realized how isolated Brian had become. He’d left his sporty pals behind. On the island, he had no friends but Max, a professional athlete who worked out like a warrior. And they hadn’t seen each other in months.
“I left work early to see Freya,” I said, to the back of his head. “She had some news.”
“What was it?” he asked, through gritted teeth.
“She’s pregnant.”
Brian’s held his position for a few more seconds, then lowered his knees. “Really?”
“I was surprised, too. And so was she. She didn’t think they could conceive, but it just happened.”
He didn’t speak for a moment, absorbing the news. Then he said, “Are you okay?”
“Yeah,” I said, my voice trembling slightly. “I felt jealous at first, but I’m happy for her. I think she really wants this baby.”
My husband gave me a sympathetic smile and squeezed my arm. “I need water,” he said, and moved to the kitchen.
“She’d always told me she didn’t want kids,” I said, trailing after him. “She sounded like she kind of hated them. But it’ll be different with her own.”
Brian filled a glass with water. “And Max?”
My one-time lover’s name on my husband’s lips elevated my pulse, but I affected a casual tone. “I haven’t seen him, but Freya said he’s happy. He was surprised, but they both feel like this is a new beginning for them. They’ve been through a lot of ugliness. A baby will bring so much joy.”
Brian drained the glass and set it down. “It’s hard to envision them as parents.”
“I thought so, too, until I saw how excited Freya is.”
“A baby will change their lifestyle. No more magic-mushroom parties, for one.”
“Definitely not.” I laughed awkwardly.
We had never talked about that night. My one attempt at a confession had been subverted, and I could see no reason to bring my dalliance with Max into the light now. So I changed the subject.
“Freya’s feeling pretty overwhelmed. But I said I’d help her and support her.”
“You’re a good friend to her.”
“We can have a role in this baby’s life, Brian. We can be its auntie and uncle.”
My husband almost smiled, but not quite. “I’m going to take a shower.”
“I’ll start dinner.”