Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Spring 2019
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Summer 2019
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Autumn 2019
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Winter 2020
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Spring 2020
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Acknowledgments
- Reading Group Guide
- Copyright
“Where are you going?”
“My friend Thompson and I are moving to Seattle.”
“Thompson?” She cocked an eyebrow and her lips twitched with a smile.
“It’s not like that,” I snapped. Thompson and I were not romantically involved. But I had gone to the drugstore to apologize for my behavior in the barn that day.
“Sorry for being a drunken asshole,” I’d muttered. Thompson was still hurt, still angry. He’d given me the cold shoulder, and so I had slunk away. So much for trying to be a decent human being.
But a few days later, after he’d heard about Freya’s disappearance, he had shown up at my house. “Sorry for your loss.”
“Thanks.”
“I know how you felt about her. This must be really hard.”
“You were right. It wasn’t real,” I said. “I’m trying to let it go and move on.”
He kicked the ground with his ratty sneaker. “Want to get some pizza?”
It’s not like I had anything else to do. “Sure.”
It was in “our booth” that I told him I was leaving the island, that I needed a fresh start. He had chewed thoughtfully for a moment before he said, “Want a roommate?”
“I’m not into you,” I said quickly.
“Yeah, I got that,” Thompson said, with the slightest roll of his eyes. “But I could use a change of scene, too. We could split the rent on a two-bedroom place.”
I had taken a sip of Coke. “You’re sure you’re not in love with me.”
“Super sure.”
And so, I had agreed.
But now Jamie was looking at me like I was about to elope. “Thompson wanted to move, and I needed a roommate,” I said. “I’ll start college in the fall.”
“That’s amazing.” Jamie’s face lit up. “I’m so proud of you.”
“It was always my plan,” I lied.
It hadn’t been, as you know. I’d been scared to leave the island, afraid I wouldn’t fit in in the big wide world. But Freya had changed me. For better or worse. She had pushed me to the brink of my sanity, forced me to commit an unthinkable act, and I had done it. I had killed the woman I loved to protect a baby from certain death. And I had gotten away with it. There was no need to feel fearful or intimidated anymore. By anyone.
I was formidable.
Maggie had finished her bottle and was dozing in her mother’s arms. Jamie carefully rose from the chair and placed her baby in the playpen. I watched the sleeping child for a moment. She looked so much like Freya. Would the resemblance haunt Jamie and Brian? Would Maggie inherit the cruel, sociopathic-bitch gene? Or would the love of two solid (if a little dull) parents allow her to grow up stable, confident, normal . . . ?