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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Spring 2019
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Summer 2019
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Autumn 2019
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. Chapter 27
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Winter 2020
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Spring 2020
  64. Chapter 56
  65. Chapter 57
  66. Chapter 58
  67. Chapter 59
  68. Chapter 60
  69. Chapter 61
  70. Chapter 62
  71. Chapter 63
  72. Chapter 64
  73. Chapter 65
  74. Chapter 66
  75. Chapter 67
  76. Chapter 68
  77. Chapter 69
  78. Chapter 70
  79. Acknowledgments
  80. Reading Group Guide
  81. Copyright

He knew I was right. I could see it in his eyes.

“I have to call Max,” I said. “I have to go over there.”

“You can’t. Any contact could be seen as harassment. It could be used against us in court.”

“But if Freya is dead . . .”

“But if she’s not . . .”

Neither of us spoke for a few moments, the weight of what Freya may have done settling on us. Finally, I said, “Low might know something.”

Brian nodded. “It’s worth a try.”

But Low had been banished, she said, when I phoned her. “I don’t know what’s going on with her. She wasn’t coping. She was freaking out. But when I tried to help her, she sent me away.”

“Do you think she would . . . kill herself?”

“She talked about it. A lot. I didn’t think she really meant it. . . .” I heard Low sigh. “I’ll try to talk to Max. I’ll keep you posted.”

And so, we waited.

“We’ll know the truth, soon enough,” Brian said. “Small towns like to talk.”

But that day passed, with no answers and no whispers. And then another. Low didn’t respond to my texts. I didn’t reach out to Max. I convinced myself that Freya was fine. Her Instagram post was just a cry for attention. She was being overly dramatic, as was her habit, manipulating people into worrying about her. I screenshotted the post to use as evidence of her instability in our custody fight.

It was on the morning of the third day, when Brian and I were having toast and coffee in our pajamas, that a vehicle crunched down our drive. Visitors to our home were rare in general, and even more rare at 6:45 a.m. We both moved to the front of the house and peered out the window. Crawling toward us was Max’s black Range Rover.

My heart was in my throat as I watched the big athlete get out of the vehicle and walk around to the back doors. He moved slowly, like he was in pain. Or in mourning. Or both. Reaching into the back, he withdrew a bucket car seat. And in it was our beautiful baby.

“He brought Maggie,” I whispered, tears filling my eyes.

“Don’t get your hopes up,” Brian said, practical and cautious. “We don’t know why he’s here.”

I hung back as Brian opened the door and ushered Max and the baby inside. Max had a bulging diaper bag on his shoulder, and my chest fluttered with hope. There would be no need to pack so much gear for a short visit.

He eschewed pleasantries. “Freya’s gone,” he said.

Brian’s eyes flitted to mine. Then he said, “Gone where?”

“She just disappeared.” He swallowed. “The police think she jumped off a cliff into the ocean.”