Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- Spring 2019
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- Chapter 6
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- Chapter 9
- Summer 2019
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- Chapter 13
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- Chapter 18
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Autumn 2019
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- Chapter 23
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- Chapter 27
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Winter 2020
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- Chapter 35
- Chapter 36
- Chapter 37
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- Chapter 51
- Chapter 52
- Chapter 53
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Spring 2020
- Chapter 56
- Chapter 57
- Chapter 58
- Chapter 59
- Chapter 60
- Chapter 61
- Chapter 62
- Chapter 63
- Chapter 64
- Chapter 65
- Chapter 66
- Chapter 67
- Chapter 68
- Chapter 69
- Chapter 70
- Acknowledgments
- Reading Group Guide
- Copyright
My mom sounded petulant. “He always said he liked living alone, said he wanted his own space. What’s so special about this Angela?”
I had just come downstairs with a backpack full of my belongings. I walked into the living room. “It’s good to know you’re human after all.”
My mom glared at me. “What are you talking about, Swallow?”
“You’re all jealous,” I said. “You feel possessive of Vik and threatened by this Angela person. It’s normal. It’s human nature.”
“No, it isn’t!” my dad cried. “Pure love isn’t about ownership and control!”
“Monogamy is a societal construct!” Gwen shouted. “It treats women like chattel!”
But my eyes were on my mom, and she was surprisingly quiet. Then she pointed at the backpack looped around my forearm. “Where are you going?”
“I’m moving in with Freya and Max. They need help with the baby.”
“You can’t stand babies.”
She was right. And while I pitied baby Maggie, that hadn’t changed my feelings toward infants in general. But Freya’s daughter would soon be gone, living with her father and Jamie. At least most of the time. And I would be entrenched in Freya’s life: her live-in photographer, her social media manager, and her best friend. Maybe even more. . . .
“They’re paying me,” I explained. “A lot.”
The adults shared a look. While they proclaimed to be socialists, they understood the value of a buck.
“Don’t be a stranger,” my dad said. My mom hugged me and let me walk out the door.
• • •
If I was to be employed as a full-time nanny, I would have to quit my job at Hawking Mercantile. Resigning also gave me the opportunity to check in with Jamie, to ensure that her plans to gain custody of Maggie were progressing. I’d always kept an emotional distance from my boss, but now I needed to connect with her. I needed her to trust me, to see me as her ally. I had been feeding her information via text: informing her of the baby’s name (and its link to Max’s mother); apprising her that Freya refused to breastfeed; letting her know that Max was struggling, even with my help. But I hadn’t seen Jamie in person since that night at the hospital.
I parked directly in front of the store and entered the deserted shop. Jamie was behind the counter, scrolling disinterestedly through her phone. My boss—soon to be former boss—did not look well. Her skin was dull and dry, and there were circles under her eyes. She wasn’t sleeping, wasn’t taking care of herself. She needed to pull it together. She had a battle ahead of her.
“I’m sorry to see you go,” she said, when I told her Max had hired me to help Freya. “How’s the baby doing?”
I sighed. “Okay, I guess. Except . . .”