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Chapters (81)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. Spring 2019
  5. Chapter 1
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Summer 2019
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Chapter 11
  17. Chapter 12
  18. Chapter 13
  19. Chapter 14
  20. Chapter 15
  21. Chapter 16
  22. Chapter 17
  23. Chapter 18
  24. Chapter 19
  25. Chapter 20
  26. Autumn 2019
  27. Chapter 21
  28. Chapter 22
  29. Chapter 23
  30. Chapter 24
  31. Chapter 25
  32. Chapter 26
  33. Chapter 27
  34. Chapter 28
  35. Chapter 29
  36. Chapter 30
  37. Chapter 31
  38. Winter 2020
  39. Chapter 32
  40. Chapter 33
  41. Chapter 34
  42. Chapter 35
  43. Chapter 36
  44. Chapter 37
  45. Chapter 38
  46. Chapter 39
  47. Chapter 40
  48. Chapter 41
  49. Chapter 42
  50. Chapter 43
  51. Chapter 44
  52. Chapter 45
  53. Chapter 46
  54. Chapter 47
  55. Chapter 48
  56. Chapter 49
  57. Chapter 50
  58. Chapter 51
  59. Chapter 52
  60. Chapter 53
  61. Chapter 54
  62. Chapter 55
  63. Spring 2020
  64. Chapter 56
  65. Chapter 57
  66. Chapter 58
  67. Chapter 59
  68. Chapter 60
  69. Chapter 61
  70. Chapter 62
  71. Chapter 63
  72. Chapter 64
  73. Chapter 65
  74. Chapter 66
  75. Chapter 67
  76. Chapter 68
  77. Chapter 69
  78. Chapter 70
  79. Acknowledgments
  80. Reading Group Guide
  81. Copyright

My stout colleague soon joined me. “This is where we sat last time,” he said, slipping into the seat across from me. “I guess this is our booth.”

I managed not to roll my eyes.

“I know you said you weren’t hungry, but can I tempt you with a slice?”

“Sure,” I said.

“Meat-lovers and a Coke?” He tapped his head like this was some great feat of memory.

“Yep.”

While I waited, I checked Freya’s Instagram. She had a new post: a selfie of her and Jamie cuddled up on her white sofa. My stomach turned sour as I took in the image of the two women. Freya held the camera, looking natural and pretty and pleased with herself. Jamie was smiling, but I could see that she was self-conscious. The lighting was terrible, the perspective off. Freya and I were supposed to be creating a beautiful, professional-quality page, not posting crappy selfies. But the worst part was Freya’s comment.

So happy to have this one in my life. Her support means everything.

#bestfriends #backtogether #grateful

My face burned with betrayal. Freya had never posted a photo with me. She’d never thanked me or mentioned me beyond a photo credit. She said we were partners, but she was using me. My mom was right. My friendship with Freya wasn’t real or healthy. None of it was.

Thompson returned with a red plastic tray laden with food. I put my phone away and pulled myself together. I wasn’t about to share my hurt with this short outcast from my high school. He handed me my pizza and drink, but I’d lost what little appetite I had had.

My so-called date tried to make small talk, but I wouldn’t engage. I picked bits of sausage from my pizza, my thoughts entrenched on the selfie of Freya and Jamie, Freya’s words of love and devotion for her best friend: Jamie, not me.

Then Thompson said something that grabbed my attention. “I couldn’t help but overhear your mom’s concerns. About Freya Light.”

“My mom only met her once,” I muttered. “She doesn’t know anything about her.” I was still defending Freya. Why?

“Still . . . ,” Thompson continued. “I can sort of see why she’d be concerned. Freya and her husband have quite a scandalous past.”

I didn’t like his salacious tone. “And they’ve suffered for it,” I snapped. “Max pled guilty to assault. And they paid that dead hockey player’s family millions.”

Thompson was suitably chastened. “Of—of course,” he stammered. “It must have been a lot to go through. Plus, Max’s paternity suit.”

A tidbit of sausage dropped from my fingers. “What?”

“You didn’t know about that?”

I hated to admit that Thompson knew more about Max and Freya than I did, but he had caught me off guard. “When was this?”