Back The Perfect Life
Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. What readers are saying about
  5. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  6. Epigraph
  7. Prologue
  8. PART ONE
  9. 1. Now
  10. 2. Then
  11. 3. Now
  12. 4. Then
  13. 5. Now
  14. 6. Then
  15. 7. Now
  16. 8. Then
  17. 9. Now
  18. 10. Then
  19. 11. Now
  20. 12. Then
  21. 13. Now
  22. 14. Then
  23. 15. Now
  24. 16. Then
  25. 17. Now
  26. 18. Then
  27. 19. Now
  28. 20. Then
  29. 21. Now
  30. 22. Then
  31. 23. Now
  32. PART TWO
  33. 24.
  34. 25. Then
  35. 26. Now
  36. 27. Then
  37. 28. Now
  38. 29. Then
  39. 30. Now
  40. 31. Then
  41. 32. Now
  42. 33. Then
  43. 34. Now
  44. 35. Now
  45. 36. Now
  46. 37. Now
  47. 38. Now
  48. 39. Now
  49. 40. Now
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  51. Epilogue
  52. Acknowledgements
  53. NUALA ELLWOOD
  54. NUALA ELLWOOD
  55. NUALA ELLWOOD
  56. NUALA ELLWOOD
  57. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘What? Who has told you all this?’ I say, panic rising in my voice.

‘The truth is you’re not satisfied with what you’ve got,’ says Bains. ‘You think you deserve better, is that right?’

‘No, that couldn’t be further from the truth,’ I say, trying desperately to see what is written on that piece of paper.

‘I think it’s a lot closer to the truth than you will admit,’ says Bains, a sick smirk spreading across his face. ‘That’s what all this is about – the fake names, the fantasy world, the inability to stick at a job – it’s because you feel superior to others, don’t you? So superior you think you can fool everyone with your lies. In fact, I’ve been told that you have admitted to people that you enjoy creating different characters to suit different situations.’

I flinch as I recall saying that to Connor when we first met. But I had been talking about work, about using make-up for different occasions, not actually becoming different people.

‘Look, I know what this is about,’ I say, my chest burning with anger. ‘You’ve been talking to my ex-boyfriend. He has an axe to grind because I ended the relationship. He wants to get back at me and he’s made all this nonsense up to frame me. This is bullshit.’ I spit the last word out.

Bains’s mouth turns down. I’ve walked right into his trap, losing it like that. I need to calm down.

‘Geoffrey Rivers had what you didn’t,’ he says, his voice laced with contempt. ‘Financial security, a big house, a successful career. All the things you’ve observed in your little trips across the country, viewing spectacular properties, seeing how perfect life can be. But on those trips you had an estate agent with you so your anger had to be curbed. No matter how furious you were that the Georgian pile in Surrey or the eco mansion with the sea view could never be yours, that anger had to be held in, didn’t it? Yet that afternoon at Holly Maze House something changed. You’d had enough. You couldn’t deal with being inadequate any more. So, when you met Mr Rivers, you – what, threatened him? Got into an argument? What happened, Vanessa?’

As he speaks I’m back there in the house. Geoffrey is telling me something then stops mid-sentence. ‘I’m awfully sorry but will you excuse me?’ I remember watching him as he walked out of the room. And then … My skin prickles at the memory but I can’t let Bains see that I’m cracking.