Back The Perfect Life
Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. What readers are saying about
  5. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  6. Epigraph
  7. Prologue
  8. PART ONE
  9. 1. Now
  10. 2. Then
  11. 3. Now
  12. 4. Then
  13. 5. Now
  14. 6. Then
  15. 7. Now
  16. 8. Then
  17. 9. Now
  18. 10. Then
  19. 11. Now
  20. 12. Then
  21. 13. Now
  22. 14. Then
  23. 15. Now
  24. 16. Then
  25. 17. Now
  26. 18. Then
  27. 19. Now
  28. 20. Then
  29. 21. Now
  30. 22. Then
  31. 23. Now
  32. PART TWO
  33. 24.
  34. 25. Then
  35. 26. Now
  36. 27. Then
  37. 28. Now
  38. 29. Then
  39. 30. Now
  40. 31. Then
  41. 32. Now
  42. 33. Then
  43. 34. Now
  44. 35. Now
  45. 36. Now
  46. 37. Now
  47. 38. Now
  48. 39. Now
  49. 40. Now
  50. 41.
  51. Epilogue
  52. Acknowledgements
  53. NUALA ELLWOOD
  54. NUALA ELLWOOD
  55. NUALA ELLWOOD
  56. NUALA ELLWOOD
  57. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

He turns to me and raises his eyebrows. I shake my head, bile rising in my throat. I sense that his story is nearly over and fear for what will come then.

‘He said that what happened to Mum was my fault. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. My mum had killed herself because of depression, not because of me. If anyone pushed her to it, it was him – he was the one who took her from everything she loved. And my father, the man beloved by kids across the world, leaned across and hissed that he didn’t blame her for feeling low with me as her son. That I clearly wasn’t right in the head either. Then …’

He pauses and wipes his eyes.

‘He said that he wished I could be the son I was supposed to be, but that I was incapable. That I was such a disappointment he’d had to invent another boy to replace me.’

‘I’m so sorry,’ I say, my mind whirring with images of Geoffrey, of his poor dead wife and lonely son.

‘That was the final straw,’ he says, pressing his fist to the glass. ‘I ran at him then, but I lost my footing and fell on the open flame of the torch. As you can see, the scars have never healed.’

He steps away from the window and suddenly the atmosphere shifts. His face darkens and he walks towards me.

‘I’m what our society would refer to as a loser, Vanessa. I’ve never had a proper job or a proper relationship, never bought a house or started a family. And it all stems from what happened that night; he baited me and I was marked for ever as the failure I am. I lost the use of my hand for a while and needed extensive skin grafts on my face. I was traumatized and needed help but my father’s solution was to hide me away, pretend I didn’t exist. He never mentioned me to the world again. So I set up home in the rooms along this corridor and we left each other alone. But then this year he announced he was selling up and using the proceeds to travel the world. The old bastard had landed on his feet yet again, no matter what the cost to anyone else, even those he was supposed to love. And he has never been punished for what he did to my mother or for what he did to me. For ruining both our lives, first with those books and then by doing this.’

He grabs my hand and runs it along the mottled scar.