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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. What readers are saying about
  5. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  6. Epigraph
  7. Prologue
  8. PART ONE
  9. 1. Now
  10. 2. Then
  11. 3. Now
  12. 4. Then
  13. 5. Now
  14. 6. Then
  15. 7. Now
  16. 8. Then
  17. 9. Now
  18. 10. Then
  19. 11. Now
  20. 12. Then
  21. 13. Now
  22. 14. Then
  23. 15. Now
  24. 16. Then
  25. 17. Now
  26. 18. Then
  27. 19. Now
  28. 20. Then
  29. 21. Now
  30. 22. Then
  31. 23. Now
  32. PART TWO
  33. 24.
  34. 25. Then
  35. 26. Now
  36. 27. Then
  37. 28. Now
  38. 29. Then
  39. 30. Now
  40. 31. Then
  41. 32. Now
  42. 33. Then
  43. 34. Now
  44. 35. Now
  45. 36. Now
  46. 37. Now
  47. 38. Now
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  49. 40. Now
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  51. Epilogue
  52. Acknowledgements
  53. NUALA ELLWOOD
  54. NUALA ELLWOOD
  55. NUALA ELLWOOD
  56. NUALA ELLWOOD
  57. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

I search my mind for an answer but all I can think of is toads. Toad’s Hatch. Hatching eggs. Think, Vanessa, I tell myself. Think of a district of Manhattan. But it’s no use. My head is full of nonsense.

‘I … er … perhaps you can show me the bedrooms?’ I say, my cheeks reddening. ‘The description on the website said they have amazing sea views.’

‘Sure,’ says Ros, her eyes narrowing. ‘The master bedroom is on the first floor. This way, please.’

She leads me up a flight of stairs that are so polished I have to grip the metal banister to stop myself from slipping. At the top there is a vast landing with floor-to-ceiling windows. I follow Ros through a doorway and step into what looks like a padded cell. The walls have been decorated with a strange, textured paper, there’s a stone floor and a metal bed with pale-blue, prison-style bedding.

‘Here you are,’ says Ros, striding towards the window. ‘You can see all the way to Margate from here.’

‘Wonderful,’ I say, but I’m not looking at the view. Instead, my eye has been drawn to a tiny picture hanging to the left of the window. I step aside to take a closer look and see that it’s by Grimshaw, my mother’s favourite artist. It depicts a mother and child walking down a moonlit path and looks so out of place in this white mausoleum I feel I have to liberate it.

‘Over here is the en suite,’ says Ros, walking over to a metal door at the far side of the room. ‘Again with sea views.’

I watch as she opens the door and steps inside. I quickly lift the picture from its hook and I’m about to slide it into my bag when she puts her head round the door.

‘What the hell are you doing?’ she says, striding towards me and grabbing the picture from my hands.

‘I … I was just taking a closer look,’ I say, my heart flipping in my chest. ‘My, er … mom loved this artist and I wanted to see if it was him.’

‘You were about to put it in your bag,’ she cries, her eyes blazing. ‘Now come on, get the hell out of here.’

She grabs my arm and escorts me down the stairs.

‘I’m sorry,’ I say, my voice trembling, my accent slipping. ‘I’ve been having a bad time lately. I don’t know what came over me. Please don’t call the police, I beg you.’

She pauses by the front door and looks at me, her face softening slightly.