Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Praise for Tess Stimson
- Dedication
- part one
- chapter 01
- chapter 02
- chapter 03
- chapter 04
- chapter 05
- chapter 06
- chapter 07
- chapter 08
- chapter 09
- chapter 10
- chapter 11
- chapter 12
- chapter 13
- chapter 14
- chapter 15
- chapter 16
- chapter 17
- chapter 18
- chapter 19
- chapter 20
- chapter 21
- chapter 22
- chapter 23
- chapter 24
- chapter 25
- chapter 26
- chapter 27
- chapter 28
- chapter 29
- chapter 30
- chapter 31
- chapter 32
- chapter 33
- chapter 34
- chapter 35
- chapter 36
- part two
- chapter 37
- chapter 38
- chapter 39
- chapter 40
- chapter 41
- chapter 42
- chapter 43
- chapter 44
- chapter 45
- chapter 46
- chapter 47
- chapter 48
- chapter 49
- part three
- chapter 50
- chapter 51
- chapter 52
- chapter 53
- chapter 54
- chapter 55
- chapter 56
- chapter 57
- chapter 58
- chapter 59
- chapter 60
- chapter 61
- chapter 62
- chapter 63
- chapter 64
- chapter 65
- chapter 66
- chapter 67
- chapter 68
- part four
- chapter 69
- ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
- Keep Reading …
- About the Author
- By the same author:
- About the Publisher
I know better than to ask him why he doesn’t leave her if what he says is true. He could give me a list of excuses, but at the end of the day he stays for the same reason Millie’s mother stayed, for the same reason all abuse victims stay.
Deep down, they think they deserve what they get.
Felix stops walking and turns to face me, digging his hands even deeper into his pockets. ‘I thought if I tried to give her what she wanted in bed, it’d help with her … frustration,’ he says. ‘But it’s like she’s passed the point of no return. The attacks are getting worse. It’s as if she’s been holding herself in check all this time and now she can’t stop. Doesn’t want to stop.’
‘Jesus Christ, Felix. And you haven’t talked about it? With anyone?’
‘We saw a marriage counsellor together a couple of times, but I was too ashamed to tell her what was really going on. The woman said we needed to visit her separately to break the cycle of codependency. Stacey wouldn’t agree to that, and I couldn’t see any point doing it on my own.’ He lets out a harsh bark of laughter. ‘Proves the woman’s point, I suppose.’
‘You can’t go on like this, Felix,’ I say urgently. ‘You have a kid. You both need to get your shit together for his sake. Surely Stacey must realise this … your relationship … she must know it isn’t normal?’
‘She does, but she thinks it’s part of what keeps us together.’ His eyes are shadowed. ‘She’s got this idea we have some sort of shared sickness, and if we cure it, it’ll destroy us.’ He shrugs. ‘Maybe she’s right. I mean, it’s not abuse, not really. Not if I let her do it.’
‘Bullshit,’ I say succinctly.
‘Perhaps it’s my fault, Tom. If I’d stood up to her when it first started—’
‘Felix, this is not your fault.’ I put my hand on his shoulder. ‘You have to leave her. This isn’t going to get better. Vinegar doesn’t turn into wine.’
‘I went to see a lawyer a few weeks ago,’ Felix admits. ‘But then the shit hit the fan at Copper Beech, and I’ve been too busy trying to salvage what I can for my investors before the company goes belly up.’
A nasty thought suddenly occurs to me. ‘You said things have been like this between you and Stacey for years,’ I say. ‘No one’s ever guessed?’
His mouth twists. ‘No. We’re the perfect power couple. Everyone wants to be us, hadn’t you heard?’
‘So what’s changed?’ I ask warily. ‘Why is she suddenly involving my wife?’