Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Praise for Tess Stimson
- Dedication
- part one
- chapter 01
- chapter 02
- chapter 03
- chapter 04
- chapter 05
- chapter 06
- chapter 07
- chapter 08
- chapter 09
- chapter 10
- chapter 11
- chapter 12
- chapter 13
- chapter 14
- chapter 15
- chapter 16
- chapter 17
- chapter 18
- chapter 19
- chapter 20
- chapter 21
- chapter 22
- chapter 23
- chapter 24
- chapter 25
- chapter 26
- chapter 27
- chapter 28
- chapter 29
- chapter 30
- chapter 31
- chapter 32
- chapter 33
- chapter 34
- chapter 35
- chapter 36
- part two
- chapter 37
- chapter 38
- chapter 39
- chapter 40
- chapter 41
- chapter 42
- chapter 43
- chapter 44
- chapter 45
- chapter 46
- chapter 47
- chapter 48
- chapter 49
- part three
- chapter 50
- chapter 51
- chapter 52
- chapter 53
- chapter 54
- chapter 55
- chapter 56
- chapter 57
- chapter 58
- chapter 59
- chapter 60
- chapter 61
- chapter 62
- chapter 63
- chapter 64
- chapter 65
- chapter 66
- chapter 67
- chapter 68
- part four
- chapter 69
- ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
- Keep Reading …
- About the Author
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- About the Publisher
At his suggestion, we meet at the park in Fulham halfway between our houses. He’s already there by the time I arrive, standing by the gate waiting for me. It’s a miserable fucking day, gloomy and overcast: the kind of dreary August weather I remember from my childhood, before climate change was a twinkle in anyone’s eye. Felix is wrapped up in a thick jacket, his shoulders hunched against the damp chill coming off the river. It makes him look like the brooding hero of a Brontë novel.
We fall into step and walk along the Embankment in silence for a few minutes. The tide is out, and there’s a dank, rotten smell in the air. Felix’s hands are thrust deep into the pockets of his jacket. I wish I’d thought to wear something warmer myself.
‘It’s not what it looks like,’ Felix says finally.
‘And what’s that?’
‘I didn’t hit my wife.’
‘That’s not what she’s told my wife.’
Felix stops and turns towards the river, gazing down at a tugboat churning slowly upriver through the brown water. ‘I don’t expect you to believe me.’
‘I don’t know what to believe,’ I tell Felix frankly. ‘Stacey turned up at my house this morning with a black eye. Why would she tell my wife you’re hitting her if you’re not?’
A muscle works at the side of his jaw, but he says nothing.
‘You need to tell me what’s really going on,’ I urge. ‘Millie’s on the warpath, and trust me, mate, once she gets her teeth into something, she doesn’t let go. If your wife’s playing some kind of sick game with her, I need to know.’
‘She should get as far away from Stacey as possible,’ Felix says baldly.
I shiver. The damp from the river must be getting to me.
‘What does that mean?’ I ask.
‘Stacey’s like a Venus flytrap,’ he says, his tone bitter. ‘She likes fucking with people. She lures you in, and by the time you realise what’s happening, it’s too late.’
‘How did she get that black eye, Felix?’ I ask quietly.
He hunches his shoulders deeper into his jacket.
‘It’s what she wants,’ he says abruptly. ‘She likes me to choke her when we … when we have sex. Until she almost passes out. She likes it rough. I mean really rough, Tom.’ His voice thickens with shame. ‘She creates these … these fantasies for us to act out. I have to attack her. Pretend to rape her. She makes me hit her.’ He looks away again. ‘It makes me sick to my stomach.’
I have no idea what to say, so I say nothing.
He turns from the river, and the two of us resume walking along the Embankment. He doesn’t speak again for quite a while.