Chapters (81)
- Cover
- Praise for Tess Stimson
- Dedication
- part one
- chapter 01
- chapter 02
- chapter 03
- chapter 04
- chapter 05
- chapter 06
- chapter 07
- chapter 08
- chapter 09
- chapter 10
- chapter 11
- chapter 12
- chapter 13
- chapter 14
- chapter 15
- chapter 16
- chapter 17
- chapter 18
- chapter 19
- chapter 20
- chapter 21
- chapter 22
- chapter 23
- chapter 24
- chapter 25
- chapter 26
- chapter 27
- chapter 28
- chapter 29
- chapter 30
- chapter 31
- chapter 32
- chapter 33
- chapter 34
- chapter 35
- chapter 36
- part two
- chapter 37
- chapter 38
- chapter 39
- chapter 40
- chapter 41
- chapter 42
- chapter 43
- chapter 44
- chapter 45
- chapter 46
- chapter 47
- chapter 48
- chapter 49
- part three
- chapter 50
- chapter 51
- chapter 52
- chapter 53
- chapter 54
- chapter 55
- chapter 56
- chapter 57
- chapter 58
- chapter 59
- chapter 60
- chapter 61
- chapter 62
- chapter 63
- chapter 64
- chapter 65
- chapter 66
- chapter 67
- chapter 68
- part four
- chapter 69
- ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
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He shrugs. ‘I’m often up late.’
I remember his escapade a few weeks ago when our neighbour found him in his kitchen at five-thirty in the morning. I wonder how often our son – our ten-year-old son – slips out in the middle of the night undetected and roams the darkened streets.
‘I don’t think Stacey’s very sad about Felix going missing,’ Peter says.
‘No,’ I say. ‘I don’t think she is, either.’
‘Maybe it’s a good thing he’s gone.’
‘Yes. Maybe it is.’
There’s something about my son that’s different today. It takes me a moment to realise what’s missing: I’ve become so used to his hostility it feels odd to be in his company without it, as if I’ve walked into a room that’s been subtly rearranged, the chairs moved or a painting changed. I know the respite is temporary, and that the barrier between us could come up as quickly as it went down: I need to take advantage of the brief detente.
I sit on the bed next to him. ‘Is there something you want to talk about?’ I ask, careful not to sound as if I care.
Peter doesn’t reply, and for a minute I think I’ve overplayed my hand.
‘Do you remember Mr Tipps?’ he asks suddenly.
For a second I can’t place the name. ‘The school rabbit?’ I say, as I finally make the connection.
‘He bit me,’ Peter says. ‘I just wanted to give him a cuddle. He was so soft and warm. I could feel his heart beating under my hand. I squeezed him, and he bit me!’
It’s the first time he’s mentioned Mr Tipps in years.
My son looks at me, and his amber eyes are filled with competing emotions: hurt, outrage, confusion and frustration.
‘Is that why you put Mr Tipps in the dishwasher?’ I ask.
‘He made me angry,’ Peter says. ‘I was just trying to love him and he hurt me. So I hurt him back.’
My gaze rests briefly on Peter’s shelf of broken things.
‘You pushed Meddie out of the window because she made you angry, too,’ I say, as the pieces fall into place. ‘She teased you, and so you hurt her back. But what about Archie? What did he do?’
‘He was such a baby,’ Peter says scornfully. ‘He made Stacey cross. He was embarrassing her.’
‘He’s her son,’ I say. ‘She loves him.’
‘She doesn’t. She told me. She likes me better.’
‘You know you can’t hurt everyone who hurts you,’ I say.
‘Why not?’
‘Because it takes too much time,’ I say.