Chapters (64)
- Cover
- Booklist
- Title Page
- Praise
- Dedication
- Prologue
- CHAPTER ONE
- CHAPTER TWO
- CHAPTER THREE
- CHAPTER FOUR
- CHAPTER FIVE
- CHAPTER SIX
- CHAPTER SEVEN
- CHAPTER EIGHT
- CHAPTER NINE
- CHAPTER TEN
- CHAPTER ELEVEN
- CHAPTER TWELVE
- CHAPTER THIRTEEN
- CHAPTER FOURTEEN
- CHAPTER FIFTEEN
- CHAPTER SIXTEEN
- CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
- CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
- CHAPTER NINETEEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY
- CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
- CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
- CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
- CHAPTER THIRTY
- CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
- CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
- CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FORTY
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
- CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
- CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
- CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
- CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
- CHAPTER FIFTY
- CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
- CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
- CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
- CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
- CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- About the Publisher
‘Don’t eat anything now. You’ll ruin your tea.’ She sounds weary today. ‘I’m about to put it on the table. Fish. From Gareth.’
‘Prick,’ Jago whispers under his breath as he shuts the fridge door.
‘All good today? You got on okay at the Davenports?’
He nods. ‘Though I don’t like the way Tam is with them. She’s not herself with them, acts weird.’
‘Hush,’ his mother says. ‘It’s good she’s found a friend. Don’t piss on her chips, love.’
He thinks of his dad. Of how he’d have frowned.
Don’t say piss on her chips, Ange. Not in front of the kids.
And his mother would have laughed and rolled her eyes behind his back, and he and his sister would have glowed inside because she’d said piss.
‘I’m going out.’
‘But tea—’
‘I’m not hungry. Granfer can have mine. He loves haddock.’
‘Where are you going?’ He avoids looking at her, but not before he catches her lips pressed tight with disappointment, shadows settled in her eyes.
‘Just out.’
‘I thought we could eat together.’
He turns his back on the sadness in her voice.
Before he leaves he reaches into his jacket pocket. Pulls out some folded notes. Leaves them on the kitchen table. ‘Rick paid me yesterday,’ he says. ‘Sorry it’s not much.’
His mum smiles at him. Takes the money. Plants a kiss on his cheek. ‘Thanks, love. You’re a good boy. I know it’s been tough these last few months. Your dad would be proud of you.’
He walks out without replying.
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
Tamsyn
July 1986
Mum had tried to persuade me not to go to The Cliff House on a Sunday but I’d told her it was fine.
‘They don’t mind. Eleanor said I was welcome whenever.’
‘Yes, love, but Sunday? Sunday isn’t for disturbing people. Use the telephone first, at least.’
So as soon as the clock hit eleven – Mum said I was absolutely not to call any house on a Sunday before eleven – I borrowed ten pence from her purse and ran up to the box.
Edie answered.
‘Hi,’ I said breathlessly. ‘It’s me. Tamsyn.’
‘Oh, hey.’ She sounded as if she’d only just woken up and I was pleased I hadn’t called earlier. ‘You okay?’
‘I’m fine.’ I hesitated, suddenly feeling unsure about inviting myself over. ‘Are you busy today? I was wondering…’ My voice trailed away.
‘You’d like to come over?’
I grinned. ‘Yes,’ I said quickly. ‘Is that okay?’
‘Of course.’
‘Should you check with your parents?’
And Edie laughed.
Eleanor was sitting at the table on the terrace when I walked up the lawn. I waved and she lifted her sunglasses off and squinted at me, then smiled.