like colors of lipsticks

or hues of roses,

and sometimes

i see people in red, too.

one person is a ruby,

another a deep maroon,

and you were blood,

swimming in it,

it just took me too long

to realize that it was

mine.

there was a time

when you controlled

everything i did

i was held captive

by strings tied

to your fingers

even now

i don’t know what’s

more terrible:

the fact that

you saw the love i had

for you and

used it against me

or the fact that

i let you

—your little puppet

i remember / your sugarplum lips / kisses wet / like a june thunderstorm / i remember / how your hands / could leave me / static / you were that electric / we fit together / like a jigsaw puzzle / we fit together / like a key and a lock / like something / meant to be / something / good / trustworthy / permanent /

i want to know / where the wheels fell off / where the blue of your eyes / started to look more / like thunder / when did you become the end of me / i keep asking your picture / when did you decide it would be more fun / to hurt me / than to love me / does my blood taste good / is it nice and red / tell me / are you enjoying / yourself

—when something starts out being more than good and ends up being more than bad

“you were so far away,”

you said,

“what was i supposed to do?”

a sob caught in my throat

as i replied, “love me.

“you were just

supposed

to love me.”

—it wasn’t that fucking complicated

i would have died for you

and you would have let me

if it meant you would have

walked away

just fine

—you would have let me drown

i should have been the only one

i should have been the only on

i should have been the only o

i should have been the only

i should have been the onl

i should have been the on

i should have been the o

i should have been the

i should have been th

i should have been t

i should have been

i should have been e

i should have been en

i should have been eno

i should have been enou

i should have been enoug

i should have been enough

i should have been enough f

i should have been enough fo

i should have been enough for

i should have been enough for y

i should have been enough for yo

i should have been enough for you

—but i wasn’t

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hey siri: what do you do if you think he’s lying to you? what do you say to him?